Venting Can’t go through with ctb method after watching gore

[sickdog]

Jesus fucking christ. I wish I had never watched those videos. I knew that a shotgun to the head wouldn't be a pretty sight but I can't get those images out of my head now. I feel traumatized. Maybe I'm just too much of coward for this shit.

How can happy people die in accidents every day? Why can't that be me? I shouldn't have to do something like *that* to end my own life. Why can't I just get in a car crash on my way to work something? It's unfair that people with potential and happiness can die so easily. I wish I could trade places with them. If only all the suicidal people could get terminal illnesses or get in accidents instead of people who got robbed of a good life. I'm so tired…

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I think it was naive in the first place to think that "death by gun" is peaceful and not messy at all. It's probably a quick method if you hit the brain stem but it's messy! I could never do this method even if I had easy access to a gun.

How can happy people die in accidents every day? Why can't that be me? I shouldn't have to do something like *that* to end my own life. Why can't I just get in a car crash on my way to work something? It's unfair that people with potential and happiness can die so easily. I wish I could trade places with them. If only all the suicidal people could get terminal illnesses or get in accidents instead of people who got robbed of a good life. I'm so tired…

Often I ask that myself when I'm very suicidal but keep in mind a terminal illness can only make your life worse if you live in a country that rejects euthanasia for terminally ill people!

 

[sickdog]

I think it was naive in the first place to think that "death by gun" is peaceful and not messy at all. It's probably a quick method if you hit the brain stem but it's messy! I could never do this method even if I had easy access to a gun.


Often I ask that myself when I'm very suicidal but keep in mind a terminal illness can only make your life worse if you live in a country that rejects euthanasia for terminally ill people!

I knew it would be messy, but I didn't care about that because I wouldn't be alive to see it. But now that I've seen it in videos I'm horrified. I do think it would be peaceful though because it would be instant death.

 

[TheOneFreeDude]

Death is always ugly, but in different levels.

 

[L'absent]

Have you ever seen a person hit by a train? If you're shocked by a rifle shot to the head, you'd better not see anything else. Painless, instant death is almost always brutal. Otherwise you suffer with uncertainty. I have a friend ruined by an attempt with monoxide and poor thing she lives a horrendous life almost like a vegetable in a wheelchair, now she has also lost her sight.

 

[FinalVoid25]

I don't really understand your concern tbh? If you have a car crash you will look even worse, there are plenty of gore pictures from those. The fact that a shotgun completely obliterates the head is relaxing to me, because that means I won't even feel anything. How you look after death is irrelevant anyway, you won't be here to think about it.