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kaworu
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- Aug 27, 2018
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From all of the methods I've seen (and tried!), charcoal burning seems better for me. Accessible (I've got everything I need already), easy, relatively quick, and best of all: painless and peaceful. Hanging myself was impossible, I did not have a suspension and the instincts kicked in and I panicked (out of my control, trust me) when I would let go.
However, there are some practical problems. First, at home I do have a small bathroom with no outside windows, but there is a vent and light placements, I thought about covering those with plastic and tape. Also, covering the gap under the door (or the whole door frame itself). Second, I read the heat is unbearable, but nothing that could not be mitigated by a wet towel.
Third, my biggest concern is the survival instincts. I'm not a particularly brave person and if I go through this, I want to go all the way, but my concern is getting into the bathroom, lighting the charcoal and going "Oh no what am I doing?", get anxious/panic and leave. No. I don't want that. So, I need to take it in small steps. What can I do to NOT back up from this? Alcohol? Drugs? Anything you can suggest?
And, additionally, am I right about the method? Almost sounds too good to be true. I cannot find anything on the internet!
However, there are some practical problems. First, at home I do have a small bathroom with no outside windows, but there is a vent and light placements, I thought about covering those with plastic and tape. Also, covering the gap under the door (or the whole door frame itself). Second, I read the heat is unbearable, but nothing that could not be mitigated by a wet towel.
Third, my biggest concern is the survival instincts. I'm not a particularly brave person and if I go through this, I want to go all the way, but my concern is getting into the bathroom, lighting the charcoal and going "Oh no what am I doing?", get anxious/panic and leave. No. I don't want that. So, I need to take it in small steps. What can I do to NOT back up from this? Alcohol? Drugs? Anything you can suggest?
And, additionally, am I right about the method? Almost sounds too good to be true. I cannot find anything on the internet!