huntermellow
another bpd death statistic
- Aug 6, 2024
- 151
i'm planning on using the charcoal burning method in december. i found out about SN and wanted to switch to that but i genuinely don't know where to get it from online since i'm in the uk so if anyone could help me with that too it would be appreciated because that method sounds more preferable to me. my ideal way to die is to fall asleep in my bed holding my plushie listening to my voice memos of the only happy moments of my life. the reason i want to do it in december is because i know most, if not everyone in my uni flat/block/building will be going home during christmas so i would have the flat to myself for a week or so and won't hurt anyone (hopefully). i'm still really scared of the chance that the CO will affect other people still in the building but idk where else to do it. i saw a very detailed thread of doing it in a tent but i wouldn't know where to set the tent up or how i would even carry everything to the tent since i don't have a car to put things in. i'm planning on sealing every crevice of the window and door with weather stripping and covering the smoke detector. i also need to measure the size of the room to know how much charcoal i should use based on the room size but i'm not very good at math or science so idk if 1kg in a typical en-suite uni bedroom will be enough… i'm also worried the smoke will make it harder for me to fall asleep even if i use sleeping pills and it might somehow leak through the door and activate any smoke alarms or sprinklers in the corridor. i'm also really scared i'll just end up burning down my room or the furniture… there's so many things to be worried about because what if i end up doing all this just for it to not work and then i'm kicked out of uni and stuck in a psych ward. would anyone be able to give me any tips or suggestions to make sure i succeed without hurting anyone or getting caught?