Checking out is hard to do

[Space Cadet]

Why does it seem so hard to commit suicide, does being afraid mean really I don't want to die?

Jumping - don't like heights.
Drowning - scary.
Jumping in front of train, messy plus if don't kill ya probably lose a limb.

Maybe deep inside me spirit is preventing me from checking out of this life.

 

[microwaved_dawg]

I mean, it's kind of an instinct, you were made to live and do shit. As someone who isn't quite sure in his decision to CTB I feel you, getting over the railing of a bridge is easy, but jumping is another can of worms.

It's human nature, trying to overcome everything that is thrown at you, hope dies last and every time you pick yourself back up maybe, just maybe this time you'll make it. I don't know what you are suffering from, but there is help out there. Even though I'm stuck in the same mindset, I've seen too many close people go through the same shit and I hate it. Consider trying again, there is never only one exit.

 

[Unknown21]

It's the method, dude. The chosen method should be relatively easy to implement and not involve much pain or potential for failure. I know that death itself is hard
and ending your existence - the only thing you know - is harder.

 

[z_oneghost]

It's the method, dude. The chosen method should be relatively easy to implement and not involve much pain or potential for failure. I know that death itself is hard
and ending your existence - the only thing you know - is harder.

What method checks these boxes for you? SN seems to have least risk of permanent injury which is why I'm leaning towards it

 

[Unknown21]

What method checks these boxes for you? SN seems to have least risk of permanent injury which is why I'm leaning towards it

SN is good, it's my method too.

 

[Tig]

microwaved_dawg, said it the best,
"HOPE DIES LAST"

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Suicide is the hardest thing that anybody can do. Being afraid doesn't mean that you don't want to die. Keep in mind that's just pro lifer rhetoric that people spew out to act like people want to live when they actually don't. A lot of suicide attempts fail which really just goes to show how risky it is. Not to mention at how because humans have restricted the relatively peaceful methods (aside from SN but many people don't even know about this in the first place), we have to rely on horrific methods such as drowning and jumping and so on. These methods themselves cause immense pain due to how SI is heavily present within each of these methods. Additionally, failing either of these methods could fuck you up permanently and significantly reduce your quality of life by leaving you with permanent injuries.

We really do live in a prison world. I hope that you get liberated from this prison one day

 

[OverBeforeStart]

Too angry and stubborn to do it, I had this rage that kept me alive. also body literally has a will of its own, causes fear in the moment I'm about to do it, and Now I'm just too comfortably numb in depression that I still don't have the will to do it. If I manage it will definitely be the hardest thing I ever had to do.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think you can want death but still be afraid of dying. Who actually wants to hurt themselves at the end of the day? Not that many people I imagine.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as personally I find it so cruel how the option of painless, guaranteed ways to die are denied, it's just horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering as a result, I wish for the option to just simply die in peace and never exist ever again and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have that.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

They made guaranteed methods into crimes to keep us all as slaves and prisoners in this evil prison world

Hiring someone to kill me would be a billion times easier and a trillion times more guaranteed. This is why they made it a crime for anyone to help u with suicide to escape unbearable pain

How evil is this world that we can't get or hire someone to help us move away from unbearable pain or suffering