coke mecanisms

[hacha]

day 5 in bed i only went out yesterday to get drunk and get some dope. mission succeeded. One plate of rice and bacon in 5 days and Im not hungry at all. my arms looking like cigarrets it kinda disgusting. Coke dreams are weird. hope my neighbours didnt hear me crying and sobbing unconsolably for hours, it was loud. I think Im gonna end myself soon without planning anything. Si is non existent, I could attemp on anything that doesnt require much preparation, Im so tired. No notes, no gifts, Ill just dissapear. Merry Christmas