Constant anxiety and fear of being alive

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I get super anxius whilst just, existing if that makes sence? I'm in a good place right now, everything is ok, but just the thought of existing is really scary too me. Like making food, eating, going outside. I'm not suicidal, but im really afraid of being alive, feeling my body. I usualy only calm down at night, or when I'm distracted by watching comfort youtubers, but I can't keep living off of charity from other people. Is there anyone else that feels this way?