onlyusefulwhenused
Member
- Dec 25, 2024
- 7
I always say I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't stop.
"Stop. Stop you apologized. You apologized 3 times."
All I want to do is cut myself open and dissect myself. Find out what the fuck is wrong with me? Someone told me if they get in trouble for something I messed up, that they would kill themselves.
I apologized constantly….i don't even know why I remain around this person, as he has used my feelings. "Delicate little flower." Is what called me once….but then a day after he destroyed me, like he was ripping off his 'delicate little flower's' petals.
I try to remain friends, as I really think my feelings were overblown due to my bpd… but him snapping at me like that makes me paranoid and insecure.
I hate how my throat swells as I choke back tears in a room full of people…I have to act ok.
I'm better off hanging from the fucking ceiling, with my wrists cut as I hang.
"Stop. Stop you apologized. You apologized 3 times."
All I want to do is cut myself open and dissect myself. Find out what the fuck is wrong with me? Someone told me if they get in trouble for something I messed up, that they would kill themselves.
I apologized constantly….i don't even know why I remain around this person, as he has used my feelings. "Delicate little flower." Is what called me once….but then a day after he destroyed me, like he was ripping off his 'delicate little flower's' petals.
I try to remain friends, as I really think my feelings were overblown due to my bpd… but him snapping at me like that makes me paranoid and insecure.
I hate how my throat swells as I choke back tears in a room full of people…I have to act ok.
I'm better off hanging from the fucking ceiling, with my wrists cut as I hang.
