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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
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Im in a successful near 8 month recovery after 20 years of depression, thanks to hormone replacement therapy.

I was planning my third and definite suicide with N, when I was suggested hormone replacement therapy and it worked!! However I still hold N in the fridge, and with the new Coronavirus around damm it's sad to say but it feels like a fail safe, a way to avoid pain and shit, now I dont want to die!! But I also wont go Coronavirus on me. Fuck, shit damm.

Thanks to the fact that I didn't throw it away or tried to sell it.

What would you do?
 
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Viola

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Feb 28, 2020
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Do you mean you're thinking of taking N to avoid getting Coronavirus?
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

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Dec 1, 2019
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I wouldn't give up your long and wonderful recovery journey because there is an illness on the lose. Take all the precautions against it, wear face masks, wash your hands regularly and if you're still concerned, avoid public places and keep interactions to a minimum. You've come so far love, don't throw it away now.
 
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Feb 18, 2019
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Im in a successful near 8 month recovery after 20 years of depression, thanks to hormone replacement therapy.

I was planning my third and definite suicide with N, when I was suggested hormone replacement therapy and it worked!! However I still hold N in the fridge, and with the new Coronavirus around damm it's sad to say but it feels like a fail safe, a way to avoid pain and shit, now I dont want to die!! But I also wont go Coronavirus on me. Fuck, shit damm.

Thanks to the fact that I didn't throw it away or tried to sell it.

What would you do?
Can you tell me more about your hormone replacement therapy? I am awaiting results for my testosterone test, and am hoping to find out I have low t. How different did you feel once in treatment?
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Can you tell me more about your hormone replacement therapy? I am awaiting results for my testosterone test, and am hoping to find out I have low t. How different did you feel once in treatment?
1 week and i simply stop feeling bad.
I stop thinking about CTB.
I started to think I have a chance.
I felt ok.
Then reality hit me, life ain't easy even when not depressed, you gotta work and push yourself, and I can do that too.
Can you tell me more about your hormone replacement therapy? I am awaiting results for my testosterone test, and am hoping to find out I have low t. How different did you feel once in treatment?
You can call me on the phone after work hours, or make a less broad question ...
Do you mean you're thinking of taking N to avoid getting Coronavirus?
Oh no.... I mean in case the virus spreads and I get infected, gheez what an ironic life , just feeling good and catching the virus damm...

Oh i meant in case of infection, which of course i got none, I'm okay now, but I thought the virus was unstoppable the other day.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
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I began hormone replacement with pellets including testosterone but I'm still depressed. It helps but I'm still dealing with the BPD. So even though it helped it's not changing that I'm still considering ctb. I think I might be happy to get the corona virus at this point. I'm sure it will suck to die that way but then u don't have to ctb.
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Most of us won't die if we get the virus.

The main thing I have done is stockpile meds I buy online. Maybe will also stockpile food
 
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Space Cadet

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Mar 2, 2020
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I actually have been thinking a out Cornavirus as a good way out not inflicting pain on friend and family I took my own life should this virus get me plus some would get death payouts from my pension as it will never be claimed so has such clauses in them. Also Gov/Health departments probably giving out pain meds to help make dying of the virus as easy pain wise as possible.
 
epic

epic

Enlightened
Aug 9, 2019
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Im in a successful near 8 month recovery after 20 years of depression, thanks to hormone replacement therapy.

I was planning my third and definite suicide with N, when I was suggested hormone replacement therapy and it worked!! However I still hold N in the fridge, and with the new Coronavirus around damm it's sad to say but it feels like a fail safe, a way to avoid pain and shit, now I dont want to die!! But I also wont go Coronavirus on me. Fuck, shit damm.

Thanks to the fact that I didn't throw it away or tried to sell it.

What would you do?
Coronavirus death rate is 2%. If you are below 50 It is 0.02% and these figures are also inflated(because only serious cases seek help). It is very likely that a vaccine will arrive in 1-2 years time so there is almost a non-existent threat to you. If you are still concerned. Just maintain good hygiene,avoid contact with people,wear mask,and clean surfaces and you will be just fine.
 
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Apr 30, 2019
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coronavirus like the flu only seems to be deadly for at risk groups because nearly all confirmed deaths in the UK from the disease were people aged over 70

why are the media making such a big deal then? probably because they want us to keep checking for updates then they profit on ad revenue. yh, that's my theory. i may be wrong idk
 
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