could someone please help me i'm so lost :(

[fruitcup333]

i feel so awkward finally writing something here and not just lurking lol but i really need help and i am just so lost
i've had this account since last year and on and off lurk when it starts to get really bad and i am finally at a point where i am just so fed up and sick of not doing anything about how i feel anymore
i'm interested in the SN method and previously knew more about it when i first made my account but since then i feel out of touch with the proper information and i really just need guidance at this point because that would just alleviate a lot of stress
like i've been trying to find this DMC source for like 3 days now and i've found nothing and i also have no clue when it even comes to the anti-nausea or whatever stuff but i'm also kinda scared because i want it to be somewhat peaceful but i've heard mixed things and like could i just take an edible and make it better lol??
sorry if this is written so poorly but i just really need help and i'm at like a very desperate point i just need answers and someone who knows to help me out because i am so lost

 

[reyonrays]

Hi there,

Sorry to hear you are going through this.

There is a lot of information on ss, and i suggest you read the megathreads, the sticky thread and take your time.
ae is easy to get through your local doctor, should not be hard to find.

DMC is one of the source that supplies sn, unfortunately i cannot give you a direct source but there is plenty of hint on ss, if you dont have the search function unlocked, then you can use this trick on google to search ss "dmc site:sanctioned-suicide.net"

Also try to search through the "y" russian search engine for the dmc site and turn off the search filter.

The only issue you probably will get is acquiring the benzos, you can try your local doctor or the dw.

The website consists of just three words, where DMC represents the initials of those words, like D**M***C****

Good luck!

 

[fruitcup333]

Hi there,

Sorry to hear you are going through this.

There is a lot of information on ss, and i suggest you read the megathreads, the sticky thread and take your time.
ae is easy to get through your local doctor, should not be hard to find.

DMC is one of the source that supplies sn, unfortunately i cannot give you a direct source but there is plenty of hint on ss, if you dont have the search function unlocked, then you can use this trick on google to search ss "dmc site:sanctioned-suicide.net"

Also try to search through the "y" russian search engine for the dmc site and turn off the search filter.

The only issue you probably will get is acquiring the benzos, you can try your local doctor or the dw.

The website consists of just three words, where DMC represents the initials of those words, like D**M***C****

Good luck!

thank you this really helped! i was able to find it. do you think it would be a good idea to have it shipped to my college? i am currently living on campus rn and i would like to avoid sending it to my parents house incase they are like wtf is this but i'm worried about my college potentially flagging it or something as well. i also want to know is eating an edible a valid option instead of a benzo? sorry if that is a silly question lol

 

[reyonrays]

thank you this really helped! i was able to find it. do you think it would be a good idea to have it shipped to my college? i am currently living on campus rn and i would like to avoid sending it to my parents house incase they are like wtf is this but i'm worried about my college potentially flagging it or something as well. i also want to know is eating an edible a valid option instead of a benzo? sorry if that is a silly question lol

It's really up to you where you like to send it to, it's your package, and it's none of their business. Violation of your privacy.
I don't know how the actually package looks like upon delivery, still waiting on mine, but usually the contents of the package is not written, it's maybe wise to come up with something if someone asks what is in the package and why you have a delivery all the way from Ukraine lol.

I don't know what you mean by edible, THC contained food? if so, really don't know, never used on myself, benzos are recommended if you manage to get one.

Sorry if it didn't answer your question, good luck!

 

[wren-briar]

Can't speak to your mail question, but -as I understand it- because of how SN works, eating anything jeopardizes its effectiveness and could prolong your suffering.

 

[fruitcup333]

Can't speak to your mail question, but -as I understand it- because of how SN works, eating anything jeopardizes its effectiveness and could prolong your suffering.

well i know fasting is involved and i would fast prior to anything but then take the edible before i would ingest the SN - depending on the mg of the gummy i was thinking around 2 or 1 and a half- the only reason is because i don't know if i will be able to access a benzo at all and i cannot smoke. so if i did fast would that little amount of food before i take SN (ig its food?) really screw the whole thing up?

It's really up to you where you like to send it to, it's your package, and it's none of their business. Violation of your privacy.
I don't know how the actually package looks like upon delivery, still waiting on mine, but usually the contents of the package is not written, it's maybe wise to come up with something if someone asks what is in the package and why you have a delivery all the way from Ukraine lol.

I don't know what you mean by edible, THC contained food? if so, really don't know, never used on myself, benzos are recommended if you manage to get one.

Sorry if it didn't answer your question, good luck!

yeah i have a plan on saying that i bought it for my boyfriend because he's a hunter blah blah blah and i know its used for meat preservatives.
and i guess i mean thc contained food? i don't know the specifics on what i've eaten before because it has always been from family or friends and i'm not super knowledgeable on the stuff but i would plan on eating like a gummy not a whole brownie or anything.

 

[wren-briar]

To be clear, I'm not remotely close to an expert, but from what I've read, even putting the SN in gelcaps or cigarette paper introduces enough non-SN to reduce the potential effectiveness of the SN. (I know I've read at least one case where the person was successful with gelcaps, but I've read more where people werr NOT successful, and these things likely impacted the obsortion of the SN.)

As I understand it, the goal is for so much SN -and only SN- to hit your stomach and, importantly, make it's way to your small intestine ASAP, i.e. with minimal digestion. ANYthing other than SN will start digestive processes, which will convert SN to sodium nitrate and thereforr reduce the actual SN that will be passed to your small intestine, thus impacting the effectiveness.

I haven't taken my own SN, but -as much as I too want to take some edibles- I'm planning on no AE and only chewing on some benzos after chugging my first cup of SN.

 

[fruitcup333]

It's really up to you where you like to send it to, it's your package, and it's none of their business. Violation of your privacy.
I don't know how the actually package looks like upon delivery, still waiting on mine, but usually the contents of the package is not written, it's maybe wise to come up with something if someone asks what is in the package and why you have a delivery all the way from Ukraine lol.

I don't know what you mean by edible, THC contained food? if so, really don't know, never used on myself, benzos are recommended if you manage to get one.

Sorry if it didn't answer your question, good luck!

yeah i have a plan on saying that i bought it for my boyfriend because he's a hunter blah blah blah and i know its used for meat preservatives.
and i guess i mean thc contained food? i don't know the specifics on what i've eaten before because it has always been from family or friends and i'm not super knowledgeable on the stuff but i would plan on eating like a gummy not a whole brownie or anything.

To be clear, I'm not remotely close to an expert, but from what I've read, even putting the SN in gelcaps or cigarette paper introduces enough non-SN to reduce the potential effectiveness of the SN. (I know I've read at least one case where the person was successful with gelcaps, but I've read more where people werr NOT successful, and these things likely impacted the obsortion of the SN.)

As I understand it, the goal is for so much SN -and only SN- to hit your stomach and, importantly, make it's way to your small intestine ASAP, i.e. with minimal digestion. ANYthing other than SN will start digestive processes, which will convert SN to sodium nitrate and thereforr reduce the actual SN that will be passed to your small intestine, thus impacting the effectiveness.

I haven't taken my own SN, but -as much as I too want to take some edibles- I'm planning on no AE and only chewing on some benzos after chugging my first cup of SN.

thank you. i was mainly considering this since it is easily accessible to me and i know how well it works on me. i am going to attempt to try and get some xanax now through my psychiatrist and if that fails maybe my friend would be willing to supply me some.