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zulcywulcy

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Oct 10, 2024
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Hi so i want to ctb before December and i i think i want to do it by drowning as it costs no money and seems simple, would bringing a backpack full of weights and doing it at night at a lake be good or should i approach it in another way?
 
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Life'sA6itch

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Oct 29, 2023
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Don't underestimate the survival instincts kicking in and what about possible witnesses? Are you going to traumatize them? Are you going to scream for help and possibly jeopardize another person or multiple who may come to save you? There are likely other factors that I can't think of at the moment that you should consider. Please find a different way where others will not witness, be traumatized or be put in jeopardy.
 
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zulcywulcy

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Oct 10, 2024
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Don't underestimate the survival instincts kicking in and what about possible witnesses? Are you going to traumatize them? Are you going to scream for help and possibly jeopardize another person or multiple who may come to save you? There are likely other factors that I can't think of at the moment that you should consider. Please find a different way where others will not witness, be traumatized or be put in jeopardy.
I said i want to do it at night where nobody will be at the lake and plus i dont have many options as i am young and have no money
 
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Life'sA6itch

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Oct 29, 2023
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I said i want to do it at night where nobody will be at the lake and plus i dont have many options as i am young and have no money
The best intentions often go awry. I lived on, at or near a lake or the ocean all my life and particularly at the lakes there were people there at all hours doing innocent and sometimes not so innocent things. Unless there is literally a hole in the ground with freshly mowed grass and no trees, boulders, bushes, fences, buildings, as far as the eye can see you really can't be certain of your survival instincts kicking in or simply being seen/heard and people risking themselves to help. I hope you find peace.
 
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sevennn

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Sep 11, 2024
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i am planning to do the same. as for the other poster. just because you find the thought horrifying. no need to project it on others. if you don't like the idea. don't attempt it yourself. it's not our place to tell someone what to do or what not to do.

anyway. i'm also going to fast then drink AE, then alcohol+benzo+sleeping pills to hopefully pass out in the water. i think im going to wear a backpack with empty plastic water bottles and fill them up with water from the pond. so, at the scene. then i don't have to carry a heavy backpack the whole way. i'm planning to stand in the water and drink what i have made and take a swim. even if i don't pass out i am not going to get out of the water. i'm tired and just need to go. i'll let the weight of the backpack drag me down then. it's scary and sad but the pain won't last forever. i wont go on a weekend. or friday. i think there will be people there, even at night.
 
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Life'sA6itch

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Oct 29, 2023
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i am planning to do the same. as for the other poster. just because you find the thought horrifying. no need to project it on others. if you don't like the idea. don't attempt it yourself. it's not our place to tell someone what to do or what not to do.

anyway. i'm also going to fast then drink AE, then alcohol+benzo+sleeping pills to hopefully pass out in the water. i think im going to wear a backpack with empty plastic water bottles and fill them up with water from the pond. so, at the scene. then i don't have to carry a heavy backpack the whole way. i'm planning to stand in the water and drink what i have made and take a swim. even if i don't pass out i am not going to get out of the water. i'm tired and just need to go. i'll let the weight of the backpack drag me down then. it's scary and sad but the pain won't last forever. i wont go on a weekend. or friday. i think there will be people there, even at night.
It's not projection at all, this comes from knowing a person scarred by witnessing a person killing themselves. There are many of us here who want to CTB but would never put that trauma on others. This is also simply being considerate of the damage it can do to witnesses for the rest of their lives. I suppose you can be selfish to the detriment of others but many of us here would find a way that prevents that. I can only hope you do the same. Good luck
 
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sevennn

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Sep 11, 2024
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It's not projection at all, this comes from knowing a person scarred by witnessing a person killing themselves. There are many of us here who want to CTB but would never put that trauma on others. This is also simply being considerate of the damage it can do to witnesses for the rest of their lives. I suppose you can be selfish to the detriment of others but many of us here would find a way that prevents that. I can only hope you do the same. Good luck
yes. i do not care at all. that's their trauma to deal with. i have mine. and that's why i'm dying.
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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yes. i do not care at all. that's their trauma to deal with. i have mine. and that's why i'm dying.
All respect to you. I hope you and OP find peace soon regardless of what you do
 
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Hvergelmir

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May 5, 2024
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i think im going to wear a backpack with empty plastic water bottles and fill them up with water from the pond [...] then i don't have to carry a heavy backpack the whole way
If you intend to use the bottles as weight it won't work.

The water in the bottles will have the same density as the water in the lake.
Add a little bit of air to the bottles, and you end up with a poor floatation device.
 
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sevennn

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Sep 11, 2024
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If you intend to use the bottles as weight it won't work.

The water in the bottles will have the same density as the water in the lake.
Add a little bit of air to the bottles, and you end up with a poor floatation device.

If you intend to use the bottles as weight it won't work.

The water in the bottles will have the same density as the water in the lake.
Add a little bit of air to the bottles, and you end up with a poor floatation device.
right. i forgot about that. hmmm i wonder what else i can use. it's not like a rocky shore tbh. i'll think about that. thanks for the help. my brains a mush
 
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Mx_Pathetic

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May 8, 2023
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It's not projection at all, this comes from knowing a person scarred by witnessing a person killing themselves. There are many of us here who want to CTB but would never put that trauma on others. This is also simply being considerate of the damage it can do to witnesses for the rest of their lives. I suppose you can be selfish to the detriment of others but many of us here would find a way that prevents that. I can only hope you do the same. Good luck
In all fairness the chances of someone finding you is very likely, no matter what you do, whether it be a couple, a kid, an old person, a cop, a medic. Someone will be traumatised. Thinking of them is very generous and nice of you, however you can't make everyone happy. In the end, it's you or them.
 
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Life'sA6itch

Student
Oct 29, 2023
158
In all fairness the chances of someone finding you is very likely, no matter what you do, whether it be a couple, a kid, an old person, a cop, a medic. Someone will be traumatised. Thinking of them is very generous and nice of you, however you can't make everyone happy. In the end, it's you or them.
"Thinking of them is very generous and nice of you, however you can't make everyone happy." 100% true. Only the cops & medics signed up for the possible experiences we may hand them, not the others. People will still do as they please.
 

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