Story CTB by the end of June

[ultraviolet]

I can't hold on anymore. I have a story like a lot of people on here - I had an abusive family, and crippling mental disabilities - ADHD and Aspergers.

My mom is a narcissist who would force me to practice piano until I would cry, and would scream at me for not sweeping the floor the way she wanted. My dad was never really present in my life. They told me I deserved to be homeless if I had ADHD.

I have severe ADHD, so bad that I can't even drive a car without crashing into traffic. And meds don't work for me, so I'm forced to live with it. I also have Aspergers, so every time I open my mouth, I say something that will come off as creepy or weird.

I can't hold down a job. If my parents kicked me out, I'd end up homeless.

I know not many people care, but I'd like to put this out. I just wish I could share my entire story, and all the pain I've suffered. Everyday of living is like being raked over hot coals, and I can't bear it any longer. I'm buying my SN to go by next month.

Van Gogh's last words before he shot himself were "the sadness will last forever". I think he had the right idea.

 

[houseofleaves]

Sounds heartbreaking.

My mom is a narcissist who would force me to practice piano until I would cry, and would scream at me for not sweeping the floor the way she wanted. My dad was never really present in my life. They told me I deserved to be homeless if I had ADHD.

Fuck them.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really unbearable what you are going through. I'm sorry that you have to endure so much pain. Life really is so unfair and some people are just so cruel. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[ultraviolet]

Thank you.