Ctb by the end of month

[davidtorez]

Ok. So my time has almost come. My health is taking a turn for the worse. My insomnia has gone to really extreme levels now to the point where I sleep about 4 hours every 2 nights. It's been like this for months now. My joints are getting worse. I lost my job because of my insomnia, no more money coming in, no energy to move or enjoy anything. I tried thc /cbd gummies, they made me worse and didn't help me sleep at all. Tried meds , meditation. Nothing is working at all! So it is clearer to me what needs to be done. I'm getting a blood test on Monday to see if there's anything wrong with my nutrition or whatever. I'm not holding my breath, melatonin pills aren't working anymore too no matter how many I take . So , this is it. I've made plans on when and where I'll be taking my N. It is expired so I'm hoping it still works. I'll be taking my metoclopramide about 40 mins before N. 3 hours before taking N I will take a few thc/cbd gummies to calm my nerves . I will have a nice place with a view in a nice comfortable bed. Please wish me luck. I'll be posting a goodbye thread on the same day i ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from the suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[LostSoul1965]

Good luck. I hope you find the peace and serenity you desire.

 

[rozeske]

Good luck. I hope everything works out in your favour.

 

[Csmith8827]

I was suffering from really bad insomnia as well... and then it stopped...but now I dunno. It's just voices. Like they try to keep me awake and not let me sleep. It's just fucking evil. I'm going to take like 100mg of trazodone tonight to see if that works.

 

[davidtorez]

I was suffering from really bad insomnia as well... and then it stopped...but now I dunno. It's just voices. Like they try to keep me awake and not let me sleep. It's just fucking evil. I'm going to take like 100mg of trazodone tonight to see if that works.

How long were you suffering from insomnia for until it stopped?

 

[Csmith8827]

How long were you suffering from insomnia for until it stopped?

I went to the Emergency Room...Like i had a God experience. Honestly...I saw two birds...like they were on lights wayyy up high...possibly 100-150feet in the air. Wayyy higher than down here on this Earth. But they landed on the lights like at the right time to communicate something? I just believe a higher-powered Being/Entity was out there...like governing this shit and knew that if i died or whatever was going on like it was death from above. That's the quote or saying I believed at that time. Death comes from above...unless we decide to do it in our own timing. We have free will, we can trash this shit if we want. Straight up. Like but Yeah...I went to the ER and spoke with some people. I didn't end of staying but i left and drank hella fucking strong ass 8.5abv malt liqour and my mom came home talking and that when things kinda subsided. I dunno....Theres something out there. It's not necessarily malevolent but I do believe that alot of the shit that we deal with while wer're here on this planet is malevolent. That's the problem. Anyways...if you have N i really wouldn't trip it. I mean yeah it's the end of your existence...but like dude...this shit isn't that great anyways. IMO...it's so fucked up. Get out while you can. But i've seen you post around here. You seem interesting. Take care. I wish you the best. I'm not trying to encourage you CTB but like if I had N which i've tried to acquire in the past I'd probably just take it. LIke....piss on all this. It's not worth it. All the fucked up shit that goes on and that happens to people and CONTINUES TO GO ON. LIke just put a stop to it all and say i've had enough. Whatever you decide...Good luck!

 

[axab43]

Ok. So my time has almost come. My health is taking a turn for the worse. My insomnia has gone to really extreme levels now to the point where I sleep about 4 hours every 2 nights. It's been like this for months now. My joints are getting worse. I lost my job because of my insomnia, no more money coming in, no energy to move or enjoy anything. I tried thc /cbd gummies, they made me worse and didn't help me sleep at all. Tried meds , meditation. Nothing is working at all! So it is clearer to me what needs to be done. I'm getting a blood test on Monday to see if there's anything wrong with my nutrition or whatever. I'm not holding my breath, melatonin pills aren't working anymore too no matter how many I take . So , this is it. I've made plans on when and where I'll be taking my N. It is expired so I'm hoping it still works. I'll be taking my metoclopramide about 40 mins before N. 3 hours before taking N I will take a few thc/cbd gummies to calm my nerves . I will have a nice place with a view in a nice comfortable bed. Please wish me luck. I'll be posting a goodbye thread on the same day i ctb

I have had really bad insomnia for years, since my brother died of Covid. Like someone else said above, I get about four hours every other night now and I am losing my hair because of it. Chronic insomnia is so hard to cope with, (I am on zopiclone but think I'm addicted to it now.) If insomnia is the reason you want to ctb, can you ask for sleep meds to give yourself a break and see how you feel?