littleraccoon3
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- Nov 20, 2024
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Hello, I am very close to having a ctb because I need to have it and I am extremely scared, I can never think of having my SI checked because I only want to have a ctb for financial reasons. Now as the time approaches I am starting to get incredibly scared. I won't even be able to eat my last meal because I am planning to do it with SN and the only side effects I have access to when doing SN are painkillers and anti-nausea pills. I won't even be able to get a damn xanax
My parents got sick at the beginning of the year and since I was the only child in the house I had to take care of them and I was unemployed during this time, I couldn't say anything to them. The illness lasted so long that I had to spend everything with my credit cards, my family seriously can't pay this debt because I am a poor family, for these reasons there is no point in saying this. I can't accept that I will do this for a debt of 8000 euros... I was talking freely on this forum, I was planning like this, I was planning like this but now the day I planned is approaching and I am very scared. I walk the streets every day and talk to employers, maybe I can get a loan or find a job but it's no use, no one will give this money, even if there is a loan. Inflation has increased incredibly in the country I live in, around 150% and unemployment has increased incredibly, damn the Middle East. I live in my friend's house and today my friend told me to leave the house because I started receiving letters from banks and he doesn't want to feed me anymore. He didn't see how hard I was trying, all he wanted was for him to have no problems during this process. I'm so scared, I don't want to do this at all, I feel so lonely... for other people this money is just money for a damn t-shirt and I can't accept it. This is the only place and community in my life that listens to me and tries to understand me right now, so thank you for listening. I plan to open a post when I do the CTB that I plan to do soon and share the process. I also want to help the only people who were there for me when I left this life for bad reasons and left with good wishes.
any response please reply I feel so lonely.I'm probably having a panic attack.Is this normal?
Hello, I am very close to having a ctb because I need to have it and I am extremely scared, I can never think of having my SI checked because I only want to have a ctb for financial reasons. Now as the time approaches I am starting to get incredibly scared. I won't even be able to eat my last meal because I am planning to do it with SN and the only side effects I have access to when doing SN are painkillers and anti-nausea pills. I won't even be able to get a damn xanax
My parents got sick at the beginning of the year and since I was the only child in the house I had to take care of them and I was unemployed during this time, I couldn't say anything to them. The illness lasted so long that I had to spend everything with my credit cards, my family seriously can't pay this debt because I am a poor family, for these reasons there is no point in saying this. I can't accept that I will do this for a debt of 8000 euros... I was talking freely on this forum, I was planning like this, I was planning like this but now the day I planned is approaching and I am very scared. I walk the streets every day and talk to employers, maybe I can get a loan or find a job but it's no use, no one will give this money, even if there is a loan. Inflation has increased incredibly in the country I live in, around 150% and unemployment has increased incredibly, damn the Middle East. I live in my friend's house and today my friend told me to leave the house because I started receiving letters from banks and he doesn't want to feed me anymore. He didn't see how hard I was trying, all he wanted was for him to have no problems during this process. I'm so scared, I don't want to do this at all, I feel so lonely... for other people this money is just money for a damn t-shirt and I can't accept it. This is the only place and community in my life that listens to me and tries to understand me right now, so thank you for listening. I plan to open a post when I do the CTB that I plan to do soon and share the process. I also want to help the only people who were there for me when I left this life for bad reasons and left with good wishes.
any response please reply I feel so lonely.I'm probably having a panic attack.Is this normal?
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