Lo$t95
Hello Darkness my old Friend
- Jul 16, 2024
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Scouted out my CTB spot during the cold weather last night. It's isolated, logistically suitable and quiet like exactly what I need and I really shouldn't be upset with it.
Tbh I am though it's eerily quiet at night I spent the night there just drinking and listening to music seeing what the vibe is like at night and it really creeps me out.
This doesn't mean it's not the spot it's just makes me feel guilty. I am uncomfortable thinking of my corpse hanging there for days/weeks/months before someone finds it. I'll be dead and nothing matters anymore but for whatever reason I feel really guilty about it. The unfortunate soul that finds me is going to curse my choice. I don't know how to amend that.
I am used to negative emotions eg apathy hatred resentment regret but not guilt - guilt is new and yeah just feels bad man. Sorry but wanted to get this off my chest before I get drunk again. Thanks for reading
Tbh I am though it's eerily quiet at night I spent the night there just drinking and listening to music seeing what the vibe is like at night and it really creeps me out.
This doesn't mean it's not the spot it's just makes me feel guilty. I am uncomfortable thinking of my corpse hanging there for days/weeks/months before someone finds it. I'll be dead and nothing matters anymore but for whatever reason I feel really guilty about it. The unfortunate soul that finds me is going to curse my choice. I don't know how to amend that.
I am used to negative emotions eg apathy hatred resentment regret but not guilt - guilt is new and yeah just feels bad man. Sorry but wanted to get this off my chest before I get drunk again. Thanks for reading
