Ctb today / few days

[rachybee]

So I've decided yes. I haven't got my SN yet. But I want to ctb today. I'm so tired of bullshit form services and trying. I'm over it.


I haven't 186 (maybe a bit more) pills mixed paracetamol and ibuprofen.

I'm thinking I will drink vodka and then take them and then go to bed. I can die. I'm over this life.

I know it maybe will take a few days. And could be painful. But it's no more pain than I have in my mind

 

[struggles_inc]

Are you sure that's a reliable method, though?

 

[rachybee]

Are you sure that's a reliable method, though?

I'm not sure. I've od before and then in hosp on a drip for stuff because I nearly died. And I have. Lot more pills today.

So yea even if it takes a bit this should kill me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you're so desperate but reconsider your decision. I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[rachybee]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

Thankyou. I so so done. I just wish I knew for sure my plan would work. But gotta try. 'If at first you don't succeed, try again'

 

[NeverHis]

Don't do this. You will just vomit it all up, and possibly end up in the ER. Trust me, I've tried and the nurse told me "if that's truly what you want, that's not what you should take".
NSAIDs are not a reliable method, I'm sure there's threads on this very forum about that.

 

[rachybee]

Don't do this. You will just vomit it all up, and possibly end up in the ER. Trust me, I've tried and the nurse told me "if that's truly what you want, that's not what you should take".
NSAIDs are not a reliable method, I'm sure there's threads on this very forum about that.

Thanks. I'm trying. Not to do it but it's so easy

 

[NeverHis]

I understand the need to CTB, but NSAIDs really are not it. Unfortunately. If it was, it wouldn't be sold over the counter.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

You just will be sick, don't do this plz

 

[rachybee]

You just will be sick, don't do this plz

I think you are right. I still wanna try it's so hard. I haven't got what o need to ctb. I want my life to end. And I don't know what to do

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I can relate but paracétamol is a fkin painfull method. You prolly die with it but after 72h+ sickness and pain. You prolly call 911 before this time. And you will have bad deceases

 

[rachybee]

I can relate but paracétamol is a fkin painfull method. You prolly die with it but after 72h+ sickness and pain. You prolly call 911 before this time. And you will have bad deceases

I'm like it will work mentally? So I can die

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Tbh just dont do this.

 

[rachybee]

Tbh just dont do this.

I will try not too. But I just wanted to do it and see. I need to ctb I can't cope anymore.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

There are so many effective methods, better and faster than this. You really want to suffer like this ?
Look, I'm disgusting myself but I don't wanna suffer like this. If you need to be sure about this, try to check symptoms on internet.
I know Vidal for refering to any meds symptoms but I don't know if it's international. Maybe only french refering

 

[rachybee]

Well I've started.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Can't say anything else than "be careful" ...
But be aware if you call emergency they have the right antidot for paracetamol OD

 

[NeverHis]

Again: Please don't do this.
You most likely won't die from it, you might just damage your organs. And then the evental organ failure will kill you in a couple of decades down the line. But until that happens, you will live with severe restrictions on your life and diet thanks to a stupid attempt that wasn't well researched.

Like I said, I've tried and it's not pleasant. You become too nauseous to function for days, and you will most likely just vomit up all te pills before they do any real damage of the kind you want. They might be semi-damaged and force you to live the rest of your life with dialysis or something, though, and that's not fun. Did you know that people who need that actually don't pee normally, and the only time they actually manage to pee is when they get the dialysis?

 

[maniac116]

I wouldn't do that!
Its an obviously impulsive & those are the attempts that fail.
The drugs you want to use have a high chance of liver toxicity & I guarantee that's something you don't want to play with.
Lastly, those drugs are not fatal & will be seen as an obvious suicide attempt & an involuntary psych hold will result.
I would suggest taking a breath & thinking things through. Wait for you an to arrive. That will give you time to plan accordingly.
Your choice of drugs has less than 2% chance of success on a good day!

 

[Thisisnotaname]

You should see that

@rachybee

 

[rachybee]

Well I couldn't take it. Police took all my pills away and also a belt I had attached to my door.

I feel so trapped and stuck. I know my SN will arrive and work. It's like 100%. But waiting till the. It's so hard.

 

[zekeyaeger]

Well I couldn't take it. Police took all my pills away and also a belt I had attached to my door.

I feel so trapped and stuck. I know my SN will arrive and work. It's like 100%. But waiting till the. It's so hard.

I am glad that you will be able to seek a relatively better way to seek freedom from pain.

 

[rachybee]

I am so done. I'm debating driving around to lots of shops and buying pills. I just want myself gone today
Yea. I'm going to different shops. I need to die. I'm so done.