Cyanide Poisoning via Apple Seeds

[TiredRat]

Good day everyone!

Long time lurker, first time poster. I'm here because I've finally decided once and for all to CTB. I've been actively suicidal for nearly a decade and I'm just done with life at this point. My issue is, I don't really have access to or the ability to go through with any of the recommended methods, and I've come up with an unconventional one I'd like some feedback on before I go through with it. I know there are already a few similar posts about this on here, but I'd like some advice on my specific plan, if that's alright.

This method is death by Cyanide poisoning using apple seeds as a carrier. I know that "don't eat apple seeds 'cause they'll kill you" is inaccurate, however, it is true that they contain a small amount of amygdalin, which degrades to HCN (Hydrogen Cyanide - Highly toxic) in the digestive tract. Based on extensive reading and some basic math, I've determined that approximately 150 apple seeds should be enough to kill the average adult female, but I'm going to go for around 300 to be safe (60 apples, at the very most).

I eat about 1-2 apples every single day (I know this sounds like a joke but it's not. I'm just crazy about apples and have been since I was a kid). I figure it should take me about a month and a half to collect all the apple seeds needed to go through with it (which I've already started doing as of last week). I will then grind them down in a mortar and pestle to assure the amygdalin releases. Optionally, I may mix the apple seed powder with some chocolate to make it more palatable. As the last step I consume it on an empty stomach and wait for the HCN to reach my bloodstream, and then off to oblivion I go.

I'm not great at science, but I think theoretically the reasoning makes sense. I should accrue no suspicion from my housemates as I already eat so many apples, and I can collect my materials in peace. This method also should be immune to throwing up, as by the time I start to experience symptoms, it will already mostly be in the digestive system and it will be too late. Also, Cyanide poisoning is both quick and hard to catch if somehow I do get into medical care. I plan to leave SN as the method in my suicide notes as to assure no way of thwarting my methodology.

I really do think I've found the ideal way to CTB for me, but I'm not sure if there are any flaws I'm not seeing that may make it a bad idea to go through with. Any and all feedback, advice, or information is welcome! I hope that this forum will be able to help me solidify the details! Thanks for any advice! Have a great day!

 

[gothbird]

Unfortunately, death by cyanide via apple seeds is extremely unreliable and dangerous in all the wrong ways. Like not because it guarantees death, but because it almost never does, even at doses higher than you've proposed. Apple seeds do contain amygdalin, which can break down into hydrogen cyanide, but the quantity released per seed is minuscule and more importantly, amygdalin is very poorly converted into HCN in the human digestive tract, especially without the enzyme β-glucosidase, which humans lack in sufficient quantities. The amount of amygdalin in 150–300 seeds is unlikely to produce a lethal cyanide dose for an adult; in fact, survivors of intentional seed ingestion have reported nausea, dizziness, vomiting, and confusion but not death. Cyanide poisoning also causes extreme internal distress: seizures, respiratory collapse, and terrifying physical symptoms. Crushing the seeds helps release amygdalin, but it doesn't ensure efficient conversion to cyanide and chocolate may interfere with absorption further. Lastly, hiding your method by misreporting it as SN won't prevent toxicology from detecting cyanide precursors if you're found. While I understand your reasoning, this method is not only unreliable but carries a high risk of survival with organ damage, severe pain, and emergency hospitalisation. If you're seriously considering CTB, I urge you to look into better documented, pharmacologically sound methods such as SN, where both the timeline and outcome are clearer and the suffering significantly reduced.