Venting Dealing with a situation that has no solutions is perhaps the most terrifying thing on earth

[ijustwishtodie]

I honestly can't think of anything more terrifying than this. Pro lifers like to insinuate that everything or at least most things has a solution to their problems and that we can just be fine and enjoy life if we were to try hard enough. However, no, not everything has a solution and the truth of the matter is that some people are irreparably fucked no matter what. For some people, there's just no solution at all or nothing that can be done to make their situation even a tiny bit better. I guess they tend to be the ones who are suicidal and have a way out of here which I will acknowledge as a solution.

However, there are also people in situations that are suffering immensely and has no solution to their problems, not even by suicide as that isn't accessible or is too risky. All these people can do is stay in limbo, in a state where they are perpetually suffering but can't access a way out of here. It's so horrifying that this is the reality that we live in but, yes, it's true. Most people can't ever acknowledge this fact because to understand that some situations are hopeless and have no solution is a nightmare.

Although I was forced to by obligation rather than choice, I tried my best to try and fit in with life (once again, because I was forced to). I tried, I really did but I'm getting to the point where my best isn't enough because I'm too disabled to handle the demands that has imposes on me.

I know I've vented about this many times before but can you even blame me? Of course this is going to cause me a lot of pain and distress as any hopeless situation would. It's the only thing on my mind right now and this place is the only place where I can even talk about it. Every waking second I'm wishing for death, I'm saying "please let me be dead, please let me be dead, please let me be dead" but unfortunately I'm still alive

 

[Hollowman]

Limbo sucks ass I've been in it for years.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I agree with everything thing you wrote. I often wonder do everyone besides us go about life truly happy and excited to be in this world? Perhaps they are faking it? Some people want to live forever and still searching for the fountain of youth, while we are saying, we want out NOW! I think maybe we have had so many problems in this life and can never have truly he happy- is that why we are in limbo? Society says we aren't allowed to want to die, they shove medication on us if we admit we are unhappy here, but like most, we have valid reasons for wanting to go.
I will never understand why we are stuck here, what purpose are we serving? I'm waiting to die everyday also.
What I can suggest is try trying to find things that keep you busy to help the time seem faster. I do a lot of arts and crafts that helps me through the day, I'm still sad but it helps.
Hopefully all of this will be over soon.
I'm sorry if I don't make sense, I've already taken my sleeping pills and they are kicking in. I sleep my free time away. I'm only up if I have to work. I hope you can find a but of happiness today

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I agree with everything thing you wrote. I often wonder do everyone besides us go about life truly happy and excited to be in this world? Perhaps they are faking it?

I wouldn't say that they're faking it completely otherwise suicide and negative topics wouldn't be so taboo but they definitely do over exaggerate their happiness to look like they're perpetually happy.

Some people want to live forever and still searching for the fountain of youth,

Oh god, thinking about this makes me nauseous. I bet that if people were to invent technology that causes people to live forever (or at least for as long as entropy allows us to), they would impose said technology on everybody else. I have no doubts in my mind that humans will do such a thing.

I will never understand why we are stuck here, what purpose are we serving?

There is no fundamental purpose to life. It's pointless and futile. The only reason as to why we're stuck here is because humans have managed to successfully restrict suicide methods.

What I can suggest is try trying to find things that keep you busy to help the time seem faster. I do a lot of arts and crafts that helps me through the day, I'm still sad but it helps.

There's nothing that helps the time seem faster and, even if I were to indulge in such things, I can't rely on it too much since ultimately and unfortunately I'd have to go back to reality and studying for university

Hopefully all of this will be over soon.

It will be. My concerns though is as to how long it'd take until it's over and the suffering that I'd have to go through during the dying process

 

[destinationlosangel]

I'm so sorry to hear this my friend. I know exactly how u feel tho. Most people dont know the extent of what many of us go thru. For them, everything has easy fix solutions. It really comes from a place of ignorance. I do not in any way wish ill upon those ignorant enough to think that our problems have solutions but they will only understand if they were to literally get to a point in their lives where they're faced with the harsh truth that maybe living isnt an option anymore. I too never thought I would end up on this forum. I had sympathy for people who had ctbed but i had told myself nah i aint even gonna kill myself. but look where I ended up. It is just ignorance. I find it very funny when people with very little experience of having strong suicidal thoughts give me motivational pep talk. I hope they dont ever get to the point that I have gotten to.

 

[isolatedl111]

I honestly can't think of anything more terrifying than this. Pro lifers like to insinuate that everything or at least most things has a solution to their problems and that we can just be fine and enjoy life if we were to try hard enough. However, no, not everything has a solution and the truth of the matter is that some people are irreparably fucked no matter what. For some people, there's just no solution at all or nothing that can be done to make their situation even a tiny bit better. I guess they tend to be the ones who are suicidal and have a way out of here which I will acknowledge as a solution.

However, there are also people in situations that are suffering immensely and has no solution to their problems, not even by suicide as that isn't accessible or is too risky. All these people can do is stay in limbo, in a state where they are perpetually suffering but can't access a way out of here. It's so horrifying that this is the reality that we live in but, yes, it's true. Most people can't ever acknowledge this fact because to understand that some situations are hopeless and have no solution is a nightmare.

Although I was forced to by obligation rather than choice, I tried my best to try and fit in with life (once again, because I was forced to). I tried, I really did but I'm getting to the point where my best isn't enough because I'm too disabled to handle the demands that has imposes on me.

I know I've vented about this many times before but can you even blame me? Of course this is going to cause me a lot of pain and distress as any hopeless situation would. It's the only thing on my mind right now and this place is the only place where I can even talk about it. Every waking second I'm wishing for death, I'm saying "please let me be dead, please let me be dead, please let me be dead" but unfortunately I'm still alive

indeed