
CyanideSoup
Memento mori
- Oct 1, 2019
- 463
I've set the date that I hope to CTB, I have SN on the way and am almost feeling relieved that the end is in sight. But I cant get rid of the guilt around the people I'm leaving behind. I know this is the best thing for me and them, and I know that there no other way out. I don't have friends, but I have a partner and a daughter and a small amount of family. They all tell me how selfish I'm being for how I feel and that I mustn't love them which hurts so much bevause I KNOW I love them. But I can't keep living in constant pain all the time. I have BPD and 'pure O' and they make my daily life a living hell. Nobody gets it though. How do I get rid of this guilt?