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Joey

Joey

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Jun 14, 2020
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Dear Mom,

I wish you were with me right now. I wish you didn't have to go out the way you did. It makes me wonder on what could've been and where you would be. How would things be different? Where would I be?

It's not my place to judge on what you did and it's sad to see how things ended up and you've put a lot of pain and struggle to my Dad. I could share the whole story on what happened but that's more personal.

I know my Dad still deeply misses you. He won't admit it but it's true and even though he's been married to somebody else, I still think it's perfectly normal to still have some hidden feelings for someone deep down and I know that he'll always care about you.

To end this off, wherever you are, I really hope that I do see you again after I pass away because I just don't want to not exist any more.. I was only 8 when you passed away and to be honest...if let's say we do have a "soul" and we're made out of energy and we fade away into oblivion afterwards..I just want to be by your side one last time and give you a hug to tell you how much I've missed you and that I would want to see all of my deceased pets /relatives again. I wouldn't even give a damn if it's even my brain playing tricks on me before lights out but it's most likely wishful thinking.

I'll always love you. I hope to see you again one day, once I pass on from this life and I hope it's not anytime soon. I don't want to let you down, wherever you are.

Your son,
Joe
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
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I dunno if this is of any comfort to you but your mom is still around as energy, I've posted this several times as I would like it read at my funeral. 12 1 Your post brought a tear to my eye as well and I'm sorry that you had to go through losing such a significant figure in your life. Sending you love ❤️
 
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Deleted member 18655

Deleted member 18655

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Jun 4, 2020
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Joe, that was beautiful. Heart-wrenching but oh so beautiful. If it's any consolation (and I realise it's not), this is one letter that you don't need to give or send or ctb for her to read. :hug:
 
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