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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
1,375
Well, here we are. I'm leaving, you're staying. Not surprising—someone has to stick around to pay the bills and pretend life makes sense.

I can already picture your faces—some of you shocked, some crying, some already wondering, "Who's paying for the funeral?" Don't worry, I left a hole in my bank account so deep even an accountant would cry.

People say suicide is an act of weakness.
You know what's really weak?
Waking up every morning to go to a shitty job, sitting in traffic, pretending to enjoy the company of people you despise, posting "life is beautiful" on social media while crying in the bathroom. Now that's pathetic. At least I had the guts to pull the plug before the game made me pay for more useless DLC levels.

"But you could have asked for help!" Oh sure, because we all know that depression is cured by dumbass advice like "Go outside!", "Think positive!", or the classic "Someone has it worse than you!". Brilliant! By that logic, even cancer patients should be thrilled, because hey, at least some guy out there has two tumors instead of one, right?

And then there's always that genius who will say, "But they seemed so normal!"—of course I did, because society trains you to fake it. You must smile, be functional like a damn home appliance. God forbid anyone notices you're rotting inside.

Speaking of rotting: I want to be cremated, and my ashes spread inside a McDonald's, so for once I can be part of a meal someone actually enjoys. Or dump me in front of the Social Security office—might as well rest in the same place where people's dreams go to die.

To wrap things up, for those now pretending to be devastated by my departure:

If you didn't give a shit about me before I died, don't start now.

If you dare say I was a wonderful person, at least do it without laughing.

If you use my death to get attention on social media, at least write it in proper English.


And to those still alive, I wish you a long life… just so you can suffer as long as possible.

Best regards from the eternal void,
The now-nonexistent me.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
920
I assume this is a goodbye thread?

Whatever happens I hope you can escape the pain of this world. Suicide is definitely not weak as we literally have to against what others say us to do as well as the instincts of our own body. Its true that some people may not be able to get better with simple things or even complicated things and ultimately you should be able to have the choice to reject doing and die if you want to do that. Thank you for your time here tho. I have really liked some of your posts and perspectives <3
 
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Crow_88

Crow_88

Student
Dec 30, 2024
101
Good luck. May you find your way to the great silence.
 
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DarkestSoul

DarkestSoul

Death = Peace
Jan 20, 2025
58
Well, here we are. I'm leaving, you're staying. Not surprising—someone has to stick around to pay the bills and pretend life makes sense.

I can already picture your faces—some of you shocked, some crying, some already wondering, "Who's paying for the funeral?" Don't worry, I left a hole in my bank account so deep even an accountant would cry.

People say suicide is an act of weakness.
You know what's really weak?
Waking up every morning to go to a shitty job, sitting in traffic, pretending to enjoy the company of people you despise, posting "life is beautiful" on social media while crying in the bathroom. Now that's pathetic. At least I had the guts to pull the plug before the game made me pay for more useless DLC levels.

"But you could have asked for help!" Oh sure, because we all know that depression is cured by dumbass advice like "Go outside!", "Think positive!", or the classic "Someone has it worse than you!". Brilliant! By that logic, even cancer patients should be thrilled, because hey, at least some guy out there has two tumors instead of one, right?

And then there's always that genius who will say, "But they seemed so normal!"—of course I did, because society trains you to fake it. You must smile, be functional like a damn home appliance. God forbid anyone notices you're rotting inside.

Speaking of rotting: I want to be cremated, and my ashes spread inside a McDonald's, so for once I can be part of a meal someone actually enjoys. Or dump me in front of the Social Security office—might as well rest in the same place where people's dreams go to die.

To wrap things up, for those now pretending to be devastated by my departure:

If you didn't give a shit about me before I died, don't start now.

If you dare say I was a wonderful person, at least do it without laughing.

If you use my death to get attention on social media, at least write it in proper English.


And to those still alive, I wish you a long life… just so you can suffer as long as possible.

Best regards from the eternal void,
The now-nonexistent me.
I really wish you the best in your decision.
Hope you'll be able to achieve peace soon painlessly.

"If you didn't give a shit about me before i died, don't start now"
This struck me most.
I can understand this outrage for hypocrisy of people. When needed they didn't bat an eye; looked in other direction.
Now when one's depressed and going to do what they deem as insane they'd be like "oh but we do care. We're there for you. It'll be alright. We'll help you."
It's the worst of human society and they've normalised it.

Anyway, don't want to make this about society and people.
Wish you All the luck in the world and peace.
You are one of the most supporting member on this forum with your words.

We'll miss you.
Hope to see you on other side soon. 🙌🏻✌🏻❤️
 
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OptingOutSmiling

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2024
439
You will be missed on here. Thank you for taking time in sharing your views, I enjoyed reading your posts. Goodbye and all the best.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
1,375
Actually, rather than a farewell thread, it would be the content of a note. Then, you can imagine where it could be left, the dynamics that would follow, and everything else. I'm curious to see the reactions to a screenshot of such a message—not so much yours in the group, but rather those it might provoke in relatives, family members, or anyone who reads it.

Of course, I would never use a message like this to say goodbye to you.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
920
Actually, rather than a farewell thread, it would be the content of a note. Then, you can imagine where it could be left, the dynamics that would follow, and everything else. I'm curious to see the reactions to a screenshot of such a message—not so much yours in the group, but rather those it might provoke in relatives, family members, or anyone who reads it.

Of course, I would never use a message like this to say goodbye to you.
sorry for assuming it was a goodbye thread, I guess I shouldn't of done that sorry everyone as I assumed it first. It sounded like you were going to ctb now which as you say is correct but when this will be used in a note for your relatives. This note is good at conveying your stance of life, death and suicide well but I imagine most won't properly understand it and be angry but maybe thats part of your intention to make them angry?

If I was able to die when my parents are still around I have made a note of a more hostile tone like yours but mine is mainly about blaming and punishing my family more for creating and trapping me here. I assume they won't actually understand what I have written but it will at least anger them which is good enough for me as I mostly just want to hurt them more with my death.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2024
439
Actually, rather than a farewell thread, it would be the content of a note. Then, you can imagine where it could be left, the dynamics that would follow, and everything else. I'm curious to see the reactions to a screenshot of such a message—not so much yours in the group, but rather those it might provoke in relatives, family members, or anyone who reads it.

Of course, I would never use a message like this to say goodbye to you.
I thought it was a bit out of character for you. Like you just "had it" with everything and everyone. For the record, your "goodbye" brought tears to my eyes and I'm glad you still here.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
1,375
sorry for assuming it was a goodbye thread, I guess I shouldn't of done that sorry everyone as I assumed it first. It sounded like you were going to ctb now which as you say is correct but when this will be used in a note for your relatives. This note is good at conveying your stance of life, death and suicide well but I imagine most won't properly understand it and be angry but maybe thats part of your intention to make them angry?

If I was able to die when my parents are still around I have made a note of a more hostile tone like yours but mine is mainly about blaming and punishing my family more for creating and trapping me here. I assume they won't actually understand what I have written but it will at least anger them which is good enough for me as I mostly just want to hurt them more with my death.
Look, dear friend, I think making them angry might be part of the idea, but it's definitely not the main goal. As you said, they probably wouldn't understand much anyway. I tried to capture the thoughts of many in this group, especially those who have reflected on what to write in a farewell note. There have been quite a few threads on this topic, with people wanting to leave a message but unsure of how to do it.
In the end, I don't think it can truly be understood by those who haven't shared similar experiences or perspectives. However, I do believe it's important, in some way, to leave a trace of oneself—something that expresses one's presence and way of thinking.
After all, we in this group are so far removed from common thought and so distant from the mainstream that, as you said, we probably wouldn't be understood anyway. The level of intelligence, understanding, and depth here is far beyond the norm, so I'm sure you can grasp the meaning of the message and its deeper significance.
I thought it was a bit out of character for you. Like you just "had it" with everything and everyone. For the record, your "goodbye" brought tears to my eyes and I'm glad you still here.
Oh, thank you, darling! This space fills my heart with joy. I'm sending you a big, warm hug!
 
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tbh2023

Experienced
Nov 4, 2024
250
Well, here we are. I'm leaving, you're staying. Not surprising—someone has to stick around to pay the bills and pretend life makes sense.

I can already picture your faces—some of you shocked, some crying, some already wondering, "Who's paying for the funeral?" Don't worry, I left a hole in my bank account so deep even an accountant would cry.

People say suicide is an act of weakness.
You know what's really weak?
Waking up every morning to go to a shitty job, sitting in traffic, pretending to enjoy the company of people you despise, posting "life is beautiful" on social media while crying in the bathroom. Now that's pathetic. At least I had the guts to pull the plug before the game made me pay for more useless DLC levels.

"But you could have asked for help!" Oh sure, because we all know that depression is cured by dumbass advice like "Go outside!", "Think positive!", or the classic "Someone has it worse than you!". Brilliant! By that logic, even cancer patients should be thrilled, because hey, at least some guy out there has two tumors instead of one, right?

And then there's always that genius who will say, "But they seemed so normal!"—of course I did, because society trains you to fake it. You must smile, be functional like a damn home appliance. God forbid anyone notices you're rotting inside.

Speaking of rotting: I want to be cremated, and my ashes spread inside a McDonald's, so for once I can be part of a meal someone actually enjoys. Or dump me in front of the Social Security office—might as well rest in the same place where people's dreams go to die.

To wrap things up, for those now pretending to be devastated by my departure:

If you didn't give a shit about me before I died, don't start now.

If you dare say I was a wonderful person, at least do it without laughing.

If you use my death to get attention on social media, at least write it in proper English.


And to those still alive, I wish you a long life… just so you can suffer as long as possible.

Best regards from the eternal void,
The now-nonexistent me.
I saw a lot of users on TikTok think like that too. People pretend they cared after we die. I needed to read this. Thank you for sharing, my friend. I will be out soon I'm just trying to figure out how?
 
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cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
304
I really like this. Will definitely reference this in my own note at some point. Suicide is certainly not weak, in fact I think it's the opposite of weak; Going against your most primal instincts to find peace. I wonder where the idea that suicide is "the easy way out" or that suicide is "weak" came from? Like who said it first? Pro lifers are extremely confusing to me sometimes.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
210
People ignore us when we're alive, but think we were important when we die.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
1,375
People ignore us when we're alive, but think we were important when we die.
Maybe because death turns people into concepts, and concepts are easier to handle than flesh-and-blood human beings.
 
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cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
304
Maybe because death turns people into concepts, and concepts are easier to handle than flesh-and-blood human beings.
It's easier to know how to respond to somebody you knew committing suicide. Really it is a pretty simple concept! Humans are so much more complicated though. It is much harder to know how to respond to these weird social situations and it is too easy to just ignore the issue unlike death which usually requires confrontation and acknowledging the situation.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2024
439
Oh, thank you, darling! This space fills my heart with joy. I'm sending you a big, warm hug!
Hug right back at you, and I feel the same about this place. It also wouldn't be the same without you here, so I'm glad that you upset me over nothing, and thanks for keeping us on our toes :smiling:
 
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SoulCage

SoulCage

Student
Dec 28, 2023
115
Or dump me in front of the Social Security office—might as well rest in the same place where people's dreams go to die

I laughed out loud because of this one. Thanks for making me laugh today, I really needed it.

Powerful post, really love how you conveyed your pain into text.
 
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Dayrain

Arcanist
Feb 3, 2023
461
I wonder where the idea that suicide is "the easy way out" or that suicide is "weak" came from? Like who said it first? Pro lifers are extremely confusing to me sometimes.
Me too. If pro-lifers say that suicide is the "easy way out", then the "hard way out" is to die by old age. And this does not sound very in favour of life to me. Or are all pro-lifers masochists? I don't think so. So again, pro-life nonsense.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
329
Love this post, especially the part about people saying how wonderful you are after you die when they treated you like garbage when you were alive
 
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