Decisions

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

This incredible power that we humans have called free will, that allows us to make decisions, is probably the most incredible thing about us. It's what separates from us from all other animals, and puts us right at the very top of the food chain.

While it is truly incredible, that we can override our animalistic instincts and flex this ability on a very regular and frequent basis, it also gives us the power and ability to royally f*** things up as well.

Personally, I was doing quite well with my decision-making duties in life for for over 50 years, but recently, I've made some really bad ones, which have caused my life to go over a metaphorical cliff. Now I'm starting to wish that we had no decision-making capabilities at all.

Now I'm faced with a new decision to make, just like virtually everyone else on this forum. Whether to keep living this life on Earth and try to recover, or prematurely move on to the next one. I really wish I didn't have to make this decision, I wish it was a subject that I never in a million years would ever have to think about.

I wish I could go back in time, and use the knowledge that I have now to make different decisions, thus avoiding the entire problem.

I think back to when I was young, and life was just great. I think back to all of the key decisions that steered my life in various different directions, and I wonder what my life would have been like if I had made those different key decisions. I can almost guarantee that I would not be in this mess, if I had made even just a few different ones, especially when it comes to my career choices.

Not all of my decisions were bad, (my wife and I have actually done quite well financially), but now my health is so screwed up so that I can't really enjoy any of it. All because of that wonderful free will that we humans possess. I think I'm still in shock, and just can't believe how I've ended up in this situation.

I'm not trying to depress everybody, just warning people to be careful. This powerful ability that we all have must be severely respected. NEVER underestimate how important it is to make good decisions in this life. Everything is riding on it. Our health, happiness, financial prosperity, and family are all depending on it. If we screw this up, we can spend the rest of our life suffering intensely, or in some cases lose it all together. In the end, our very survival and existence, both in this life and the next, are depending on it.

I've made the decision to keep going, for as long as humanly possible. As long as there is even a sliver of a chance for recovery, I'm going to take it. Mainly because when life is good, it is really f****** good. Once you've experienced some of these things, you really won't want to give up on the chance to experience more.

As much as I intensely regret all of the boneheaded decisions I've made in life my life, I'm still addicted to it. I'm completely pissed off with myself for allowing this to happen, and am traumatized in a way that I never thought was even possible. Currently my level of suffering is off the charts, but I'm determined to hang in there and give life more chances to improve. This decision, I'm convinced, is actually a good one.

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

We all make bad decisions, I've made some bad decisions, and then, sad to say, other people in my life have made some very decisions which has affected me badly, and it all adds up to screw me horribly. I'm glad you are not giving up quite yet, I'm trying my absolute best to keep going, its hard work, but keep going, I'm here if you want a friendly chat, although I'm crap at talking

 

[Natanael]

I always find that you say quite interesting things, without any commitment or intention to bother, would it be possible at some point to have a chat with you?

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

I always find that you say quite interesting things, without any commitment or intention to bother, would it be possible at some point to have a chat with you?

Definitely

 

[Natanael]

Definitely

I don't have access to chat enabled yet, do you have any other platform? I can pass my username in any of them

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

I don't have access to chat enabled yet, do you have any other platform? I can pass my username in any of them

I'm not aware of any other platforms within this forum, and we should probably maintain our confidentiality for safety reasons. I'm sure you'll have access to private chat very soon though. I just joined very recently, and have access to it now. It's a pain in the butt having to hide our true identities, but it's a good idea given the nature of this subject. Unfortunately I'm not a member of any other online forum.

 

[Natanael]

I'm not aware of any other platforms within this forum, and we should probably maintain our confidentiality for safety reasons. I'm sure you'll have access to private chat very soon though. I just joined very recently, and have access to it now.

Ok, if at some point I get access to the chat I'll talk to you there, thanks!

 

[Hero Remeer]

Wow, what a great topic, really very deep and moving, it shows me again and again that we all go through similar things in different ways, thanks for sharing that.
It's interesting to "go back" and use current knowledge to "live better", who knows what would happen? In the end it's not possible because we need to go through what we went through to realize that, life is curious haha. The same thing happens to me as you say, but in the end that thought is unnecessary suffering as well as the fear of the future for what may happen or worsen in some aspect.
I really hope that you can go through this victorious process and that it brings you a more valuable understanding and comprehension in your life, in your person, in your being.
Greetings, be well and a hug

 

[lastboyscout]

There is a scene in Back to future 2 where Doc Brown explains to Marty why they need to come back to 1955 to get back the Gray Sports Almanaque that Marty bought in 2015 tooked by Biff. The decision of buying the book triggered a serial number of consequences that would change the rest of their lifes and everyone else in Hill Valley. As Doc says, that decision opened a tangent in the timeline creating an alternative future to them and everyone else.
Its preety scary when we think how the future is so uncertain and fragile. Like for ex. of how just a few secs can make u miss walking by a stranger that would talk to u and become the love of your life , a wrong answer in the school test that makes u fail graduating for 0,5 points, a bad decision in traffic leading to a weelchair etc etc

Personally, I was doing quite well with my decision-making duties in life for for over 50 years, but recently, I've made some really bad ones, which have caused my life to go over a metaphorical cliff. Now I'm starting to wish that we had no decision-making capabilities at all.

i dealed well 36 years , then bad decisions lead me to this future i am now
Its always a process most of the times triggered by one or more events that leads to decisions and its consequences. my trigger was failed relationship 11 years ago with a perfect woman that lead to bad decisions like getting out of a great 7 year job in a Bank, then more consequences and so on and on getting to this present of an alternative timeline triggered by just one single damn event.

Bad decisions makes part of everyones life, its impossible to avoid them. The best thing to do is get along with them the best we can

Health is very important, i have no idea what could made it turn bad suddenly for you, i hope it has treatment and you get better soon,
wealth and family makes all diference betwen the wish and will to go on