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Veraz

Veraz

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Feb 23, 2023
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Prefacing this by explaining that this is NOT a goodbye thread. I highly doubt I will see this through to the end. If anything, it's more of a self-harm experiment I guess. I am also not advocating that anybody else try this. I'm not really trying to CTB here. I just want to see how far I can push my body. Currently I am 40 hours in of complete nutrient deprivation (absolutely no food or water at all). But my symptoms are pretty mild so far. A little dizzy when first standing up. Dry mouth and throat, but only slightly. No pain or headaches yet. But starting to feel pretty fatigued. The only really big thing I have noticed is that my breathing is definitely slower. I assume it's from my metabolism slowing down to try and conserve energy. Also I weighed myself this morning and seem to have lost 4 pounds overnight. I only pee'd a single time in the span of 24 hours. And also I am taking a diuretic (Hydrochlorothiazide) so I am unsure of how this will effect things. Doesn't really seem to be doing anything so far.

When I move, it feels like the air is... heavier, or something? Thicker maybe? Not really sure how to explain it. Just that it kind of feels like I am moving in slow motion. There's probably a more technical term for this experience, but I wouldn't know what it is. Most surprisingly is the fact that I am not hungry yet. Maybe it's the Adderall suppressing my appetite, but considering I am only taking my normal daily dose (20mg) this seems unlikely.

I think I could easily keep this going for another 8-16 hours, including sleep. I assume the pain and more severe symptoms will begin on the third day, which is probably when I will cave, or my family will intervene and force me to eat/drink something. They have already noticed that I am skipping meals.
 
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roommate

roommate

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Feb 14, 2025
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This experimentation could damage your body pretty bad.
I am sorry you're going through this.
 
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g0ne1nthew1nd

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Feb 11, 2025
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I have done something similar I lasted 5 days and then gave in, I hope you are ok and please be careful of refeeding syndrome! <33 I wish you peace and love <3
 
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Veraz

Veraz

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Feb 23, 2023
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This experimentation could damage your body pretty bad.
I am sorry you're going through this.
Yeah, I already figured that. I guess I just really can't stand the feeling of being so depressed, yet not being able to do anything about it. It makes me feel trapped and powerless, and I hate that. So doing this little experiment at least gives me the sense of feeling like my emotions are more valid. Like I can witness the physical toll they are taking on my body and tell myself "Look, see that? It's not all in my head!" even if I know deep down it's only a lame gesture.
 
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Queen B

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Nov 24, 2024
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This a very risky you may get hurt and be sent to a hostel and if they found out what you are doing they may put you under watch
 
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Veraz

Veraz

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Feb 23, 2023
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Update - 64-hour mark.

My assumption that the more severe symptoms would begin on the third day was correct. Feeling EXTREMELY tired now. Difficult to stay awake, strong urge to sleep. Slight chest pain when breathing (but only sometimes). Nausea but no vomiting yet, which is unsurprising seeing as how I don't have anything in my system to throw up anyway. Very lightheaded and somewhat woozy when standing up. No pain yet but very uncomfortable and it feels like my entire body is on edge. My eyes hurt a little bit, because they are kinda dried out. Mouth and throat are a little dry, but surprisingly still not too bad. Guess they get priority for the remaining water in my system over my eyes. Still peeing only about once a day.

Overall, starting to feel pretty sick. Might stop the experiment at the 72-hour mark, depending on how I feel.