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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
737
I've basically given up trying to predict when I might have a good day or a day when the depression comes at me in so many black waves. I mean, sometimes I feel like, maybe I can recover! Some days I'm like I better just kill myself before the summer's out.

I'm basically planning for both outcomes at the same time.

Schrodinger's suicide, if you will.
 
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so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
I flip between the two quite frequently throughout the day so I can completely relate to Schrodinger's suicide.
 
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EraseRewind

EraseRewind

Circling the drain
May 13, 2020
225
I can relate to flipping between two states of mind. I don't seem to have any particular trigger either. I know it's not possible but I'd like my shit side to ctb and leave me with the better half of my mind.
 
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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
737
I don't seem to have any particular trigger either.
Same for me. My support worker's like, 'Can't you work out what makes the bad days bad?' I'm like, 'Nope.'
 
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Georgii

Arcanist
Sep 25, 2019
433
A never ending game :Will I break down over some random sht(or even literally nothing) or will I be able to go thru the day quietly with maybe a glimmer of hope ?
 
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draw a circle

out.
Apr 10, 2020
300
Same. Some days I'm like, maybe I should start doing therapy, but the next minute I will be like, "alright, time to die!" Can't decide what I want more, but if the world ends tomorrow, I wouldn't be complaining, ya know?
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm de-stressing
Jul 1, 2020
6,955
I'm hopeful for getting better but some moments it's unbearable. I know what I'd prefer but I go through the same thing so what ever happens I guess lol
 
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