tvo
Student
- Apr 3, 2024
- 110
Desensitized (gore videos)
So I went to one of those gore websites and watched (on mute) one of the most fucked up graphic execution I have ever seen. My body was shaking (literally) after watching that, then after several hours later I went numb (emotionless), I barely feel anything right now (as I am busy typing these), there's barely any thoughts, especially those ones that have been tormenting me for a while now from my past traumatic experiences. Now I can't help but wonder, did I just use that extremely graphic content to desensitize and numb my psychological pain, the same way I used to do with a blade, did I just self-harm?
Has anyone ever watched those graphic gore videos and just became numb or or does anyone consciously watch those videos to numb the pain (coping mechanism)?
So I went to one of those gore websites and watched (on mute) one of the most fucked up graphic execution I have ever seen. My body was shaking (literally) after watching that, then after several hours later I went numb (emotionless), I barely feel anything right now (as I am busy typing these), there's barely any thoughts, especially those ones that have been tormenting me for a while now from my past traumatic experiences. Now I can't help but wonder, did I just use that extremely graphic content to desensitize and numb my psychological pain, the same way I used to do with a blade, did I just self-harm?
Has anyone ever watched those graphic gore videos and just became numb or or does anyone consciously watch those videos to numb the pain (coping mechanism)?