Method disappearing without a trace. is this a realistic scenario?

[endofeverything]

the last few weeks in particular have been almost non-stop wishing to die and forging ideas on how i would do so. i'm wondering if this is a scenario that could possibly go over well, or if it's too risky/too complex??? let me know your thoughts.

i'm planning to disappear without a trace, nor a hint that i took my own life (although a few close people would probably know). the first step would be to throw away a few items containing sensitive info or things i don't want people to know about me after my death. i'd wipe my phone and replace my hard drives, and delete most online accounts (as deletable as they are...) so that there are as few things as possible linking my real life and online life together.

next up, i would pack my bags with a few basic items: some clothes, some cash, maybe some food. i'd leave all electronic devices at home, to avoid tracking. maybe bring an offline mp3-player with me so i'm not too bored on the road. i'm gonna attempt to cross a few country borders. shouldn't be too hard since i'm within the european union, but ideally i don't have to show my passport anywhere, to avoid leaving a trail. at this point, i'd probably already count as missing, unless i depart on a weekend or holiday and nobody tries to reach out for a few days.

i'd like to reach the ocean. anywhere is fine. this is the hard part. i'll have to either throw all my belongings in a dumpster, including most of my clothes; or i burn them in a pit in some remote location. i'd watch the sunset one final time. then, as it gets dark, i'll attempt to swim out into the ocean as far as i can without being seen or rescued. i'll have to do research on ocean currents beforehand, to make sure i don't get swept back to shore after dying, as i'd hate nothing more than having my body be found.

the main risks of this are being stopped on the road, or not managing to swim out far enough - i've never been a particularly good swimmer. i'm a fairly determined person though, so the risk of me changing my mind during the trip would be minimal. it also doesn't bother me that drowning or freezing in the ocean is an agonizing way to go, as once the panic sets in, i'll be way past the point of no return, and time takes care of the rest.

how feasible is this? i know this sounds like a fairly complex process, but it'd put me most at ease knowing i'm leaving no ugly corpse behind, and finally let me escape the agony. i think it would be quite cathartic, also, to go on that final adventure. it's all just fantasy for now anyway, but i can't rule it out either. i don't see myself doing it any other way.

 

[JesiBel]

Traveling for several days and being without communication... wouldn't that raise suspicions among family and friends? If they notify the police about your disappearance, they could start looking for you.

I suppose that in all countries or states there are border controls where they identify people entering and leaving their territories. They always have a connection with the police, if there is a report that you are "missing", they will detain you.

 

[cme-dme]

It is certainly possible but very hard. You'd have to go somewhere no human would ever cross accidentally. Out in the middle of the woods or somehow get out in the middle of the ocean far away from shore.
You'd have to remove any traces of where you're going though which is the hard part. Going somewhere far away with a car without leaving any trail seems impossible to me so you'd have to walk to your destination. I supoose you could drive somewhere far away and walk the rest of the distance.
Although, how would you want the people who care about you to remember you? Would you rather they be left thinking you've been kidnapped, murdered or some other horrible thing or that you have committed suicide? Jusy something to think about.

 

[J&L383]

In today's age of technology it's very difficult. Just the plan of closing accounts indicates that something was planned so you'd have to do nothing of that if you wanted to look like you're just disappeared without a trace without warning and without premeditated plans.

As for locale, the ocean probably would be your best bet, but you'd have to weigh your body down so you don't become a floater and wash back to shore. And hope that you get consumed by ocean dwellers.

Murder victims have been known to disappear and never been found but that's because their perpetrators buried them but I don't know how you could bury yourself.

And if you tell anyone ahead of time that info would eventually get leaked.