Method DKA / skipping insulin to CTB

[ShipSeeksHarbour]

Basically I'm type 1 diabetic and considering this method

I recently went a few days without taking any of my insulin. At this point I should have been quite unwell and needing hospital admission however unfortunately I did not get to this point. I felt awful but only had high blood sugars, no ketones (the highest my blood ketones got was 0.9 and it went away when I ate carbs even though I didn't take insulin for them), so I gave in and took my insulin again.

I think I would need to commit to minimal eating and near constant exercise in order to get high enough ketones, but it can be done.

However, DKA might be an unpleasant way to go. I have never experienced it as I was diagnosed before I got very unwell with t1d and started insulin before I got many ketones. I don't know if my stopping insulin recently was a proper attempt really; more not caring what happened, wanting to play with the risk of dying, wanting to be ill or for someone to intervene. But I didn't get ill enough.

Taking too much insulin is another option but too much SI I think; I tried even just making my blood sugars go low on purpose recently and I couldn't hold out not treating it. I think I'd have to slowly run them lower and lower so I then wouldn't get symptoms, I'd just get seizures and die.

But also, my cognition my intelligence is the only thing going for me, the only thing I have left that I'm living for and that I value as me. My life would be even worse if I lost that, if I survived but with brain damage.

I'm looking for some advice here, but I don't know if on anything specific - any of it, really.

Also I put this under methods so in suicide discussion, but I'm happy for suicide and recovery answers both here.

 

[ShipSeeksHarbour]

Idk if I've put this in the right place but any kind of advice or talking to me is good

 

[RoseGirl]

it'd be better to do the opposite and take too much insulin, then fast till you faint. How does it feel when blood sugars get too low?
High blood sugars are a slow and painful way to die. Involving like necrosis and stuff.

 

[spookyjar]

I experienced DKA a few years ago, it was a bad experience, but it could have been worse. Take this with a grain of salt though, as everyone's experience can be different. At my worst my blood sugar was ~680 and I felt extremely fatigued and could barely walk, slightly disoriented, with a lot of stomach pain.
DKA happens over a period of time, so symptoms can creep up on you or be sudden as your body reacts; your toes, fingers, and limbs can rot. Your kidneys can also get destroyed. Overall I don't think the method is preferable due to the possible affects on your body, and the possibility of you being found while you're still alive.

 

[CatLvr]

Please do not do this. Without going into the whole long, sordid tale my husband died in an emergency room from DKA. It took him a couple of tries over a period of 6 months or so -- a couple of months long stay in an ICU and a LOT of pain and suffering along the way. I stood in the corner of that ER room, at the end, and watched him die. The thing is it doesn't kill you quick. And the mental and physical suffering -- it really messed with his mind -- is horrible, and the things they do to you in ICU to keep you alive are extremely uncomfortable, at best. It really is a horrible way to die.