Any answer will be subjective, in my opinion it's a beautiful hell.
Nature is beautiful on the surface, but in reality everything survives, competes, reproduces, devours and decays. But I still love nature.
Humans can be incredibly kind and can create amazing and beautiful things (a lot of creativity is like magic to me), but humans can also be insanely cruel, no animal is capable of being as cruel and devious as humans. I don't feel comfortable in the human world, there is no safe space here, no trust possible and most social things are foreign to me.
I know some people really like this harsh world, but it doesn't suit me, from a very early age I felt like a lost alien.
I want to live here, but not for long, I am interested in art, science and psychology, new experiences and also contemplating nature and different atmospheric places, but my mind, traumatised by this life, won't last long and another reason I don't want to grow old.
Hopefully when I die I'll go to a place I can call home, if not it's better to just disappear forever.