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Anonymoususer1234

Anonymoususer1234

Experienced
Apr 13, 2023
225
I keep going scrolling through certain tags on social media even though I know they'll make me angry/anxious/ashamed/generally upset.

It almost feels...hypnotic. I don't know why I keep doing it.

Does anyone else do the same thing/something similar or is it just me?
 
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soonatpeace777888

soonatpeace777888

Specialist
Jul 4, 2023
388
My brain is addicted to pain, which is why I hate it and myself.
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
692
I do, but don't know why. I don't get upset over it, but just watch and scroll unemotionally. And it's getting worse, where I'm spending more time doing it. Can't stop...
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
383
I try to avoid anything like that.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
Yes, I think it's because we're driven to try to learn something from our bad experiences, even if very often there is nothing to be learned. Our mind goes over a past experiences again and again and again hoping for a new insight that never comes or reexamines a frightening possibility in the hope that it can be avoided. It doesn't need to be an exact match for our mind to find it engaging; it just needs to tap into the same emotional threads.

Back when I had a lot of unresolved childhood trauma from abuse/neglect by the adults in my life, I used to be captivated by harrowing stories about abuses of power and sadism. Even though they understandably depressed me, I was drawn to them nonetheless.

This and other experiences in life suggest to me that seeking happiness is not actually a primary instinctual drive. The human mind seems much better suited to focus on negative rather than positive stimuli since it arguably aided survival in our dangerous evolutionary past. I see this phenomenon you're talking about as an extension of this instinct.

That's my theory anyway.
 
busybee

busybee

Experienced
Jul 5, 2023
209
I do. When I am upset I don't feel as empty.
 
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Zebulon

Zebulon

The loneliness is killing me
Jul 30, 2023
125
I talk to people whom I know will make me unhappy, because the have everything figured out and cant understand our struggles
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,351
absolutely it's just another form of self harm for me but sometimes I do it/seek out upsetting things without knowing it
 
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