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dioxide

Member
Dec 6, 2019
59
Do you sometime feel envious looking for people around you?

People happy, in good physical condition, athletic, jumping and doing weights like on the fitness breakfast morning tv show?

People wealthy, driving huge and powerful cars, living in huge beautiful house in wonderful places?

People living their lifes like everyday party, like MTV clips?

People that think their biggest problem is choosing the color of the next sofa' or the size of the next tv?

People that live everyday with their perfect march, going in vacation with her/him, living their life like a love lunapark?
 
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Let'sgetoutofHERE

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Oct 7, 2019
81
Omg yes. I had a friend who literally had everything (smart, attractive, loving family, lots of friends, funny, talented, incredibly confident,...) and I envied her so much and always compared myself to her.
Do you sometime feel envious looking for people around you?

People happy, in good physical condition, athletic, jumping and doing weights like on the fitness breakfast morning tv show?

People wealthy, driving huge and powerful cars, living in huge beautiful house in wonderful places?

People living their lifes like everyday party, like MTV clips?

People that think their biggest problem is choosing the color of the next sofa' or the size of the next tv?

People that live everyday with their perfect march, going in vacation with her/him, living their life like a love lunapark?
Who do you envy?
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I don't leave my apartment. I jealous of anyone who has friends or does something as simple as going to a movie.
 
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Let'sgetoutofHERE

Member
Oct 7, 2019
81
I don't leave my apartment. I jealous of anyone who has friends or does something as simple as going to a movie.
What's the reason why you don't leave your apartment?
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
What's the reason why you don't leave your apartment?
I could say where would I go? Which is true. But I have oxygen, PTSD, anxiety, stress... and I am too attached to my cat and have panic attacks without him.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I'm envious of people who don't have mental illness and who are competent and know how to do a lot of things
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
Oh yes, I envy them who actually can enjoy life, I had a glimpse of that. It is magical when you get up in a perfect mood and smile appears on your face. When you don't dread another day, you mind is not attacking itself and goodness is in the air.
People who experience it often are truly lucky.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
Yes. All the time, when my friends tell me how great their lives are while I spent my time figuring out how to die.
 
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Girobatol

Girobatol

Specialist
Sep 9, 2019
313
I also envy people who dont need to take psych meds to live. I would give it all just to be free of pills for the mind.
 
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terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
I wouldn't say i feel envy but i do look at the lives of some of my peers who have married, had kids, are in employment etc, and wish that could have been me. I am grateful that i did have some success in life years ago before things went wrong.
I feel extra sorry for the people here that seem to have suffered at all points in their lives.
 
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Manja

Can't wait to die
Nov 27, 2019
182
I don't I just feel bad about myself...I'm not into material stuff but when I see people well adjusted to society having friends and family and loved by them I just feel so worthless...the weird thing is other people told me that they envied me before they knew me better bc I look like I have great life and not a care in the world, and that's why they were mean to me :O
 
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Nemeshisu

Experienced
Dec 25, 2019
236
I am kind of jealous of people who can lead normal lives without any mental illness. I am jealous of people who have a loving partner. But I suppose there are people who would be envious of me. So I am rather grateful for my life even though it was (and sitll is) very lonely one.
 
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OneBigBlur

OneBigBlur

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
231
Not envy, just sadness. I passed by a woman walking alone yesterday and she looked so happy, I burst into tears not long after.
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Of course. I'm extremely bitter when I compare myself to my little sister and her success/everything she gets to do because she isn't burdened by health problems.

However, I know that not everything/every person is how they appear on the outside so I try to not compare myself in general. For instance my sister is a stone cold bitch.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I envy pretty anyone I run into that seems happy and healthy. I also envy anyone who can enjoy milk. It's a petty thing but I can't eat any dairy at all so I can't even enjoy pastries or ice cream or pizza or anything like that. I used to be able to when I was way younger but not these days. It's something I usually try to just kill the moment after it comes up in my head though. Everyone has their demons and their physical problems that you might never learn about. It's not worth comparing myself to others and feeling like garbage because they have something I wish I had or think I deserve.
 
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BlessedOffal

BlessedOffal

Member
Oct 2, 2019
59
Not often. It's something I've worked on not falling prey to most my life because it used to cause me so much pain and I let myself suffer for it. I'll catch glimpses of some shiny, perfect people and feel a longing to be them from time to time though. But I try to focus on how I don't know their inner lives. I don't know if they're loved and feel loved, if anything plagues them or if they're just going through the motions and expectations not really feeling all that much.
 
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awfullife

awfullife

Arcanist
Nov 16, 2019
435
Every day. The hardest part is that person used to be me.
 
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HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
Definitely. They say money can't buy happiness but it sure can. It can buy you extra time (better healthcare), incredible experiences, activities, vacations, etc, that poor people don't have access to, and that would certainly make me happy. And even if it didn't, I'd rather cry in a ferrari than an old banger. Lol
 
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Quarky00

Quarky00

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2019
1,956
Had to look dictionary to understand what's envy (what is it and do I feel it?)

Then it hit me - "do you feel envy", "envy is an emotion which" :) No, too empty too feel. Good for them running people, I don't care.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
Absolutely I even envy my 2 sisters. I look at how much they've achieved and how little I have. The rare time I am out and about in town everybody looks either happy or OK. I feel niether. Everybody is at least decent looking, fashionable, high on life. Not me. Guys have normal deep voices. I have voice problems. I hate to use this word but I am often triggered. Better to just stay home and weep.
 
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Quax

Quax

Student
Nov 16, 2019
140
No, I'm not envious.... I had and still have that kind of life which seems so desirable. But today I know it's just an illusion. I learned that it is worthless. Why? Because there's no sense in all that! Having more and more, piling up money, owning a house you don't need, having friends (when are friends,friends?) didn't satisfy me. Money doesn't buy you happiness... and believe me, most of these happy people out there aren't what they seem to be... they are ......... just illusions......For me the big questions are.... is there a deeper sense (I guess - No) and what is happiness? Can one be really happy? And again my conclusion is no! So being envious is obsolete.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
Definitely. They say money can't buy happiness but it sure can. It can buy you extra time (better healthcare), incredible experiences, activities, vacations, etc, that poor people don't have access to, and that would certainly make me happy. And even if it didn't, I'd rather cry in a ferrari than an old banger. Lol
you sound like my kinda person :hug: I completely agree.
 
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freefrommybody

Vehemently Pro-choice
Nov 19, 2019
115
I have bits of envy every so often, but I usually just wonder at people who are doing better than me. I think, "Wow, they're really living. Good for them. I'll watch my mouth so I don't poison them with my philosophy."
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Envious... more sad that i could have been what they were if I had just my shit together sooner, not screwed around with men, and had stayed where I was instead of sabotaging everything I was finally building.

also confused as to why I am the way I am, why I've been so ridiculous and delusional and living in a reality separate from the people around me that are healthy
why i behave like a desperate 12 year old child or emo goth
And how I would take it all back if I could just go back in time to before I quit my awesome job and home.
now god knows what's going to become of me.
 
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Let'sgetoutofHERE

Member
Oct 7, 2019
81
I have bits of envy every so often, but I usually just wonder at people who are doing better than me. I think, "Wow, they're really living. Good for them. I'll watch my mouth so I don't poison them with my philosophy."
Omg your last sentence, this is me with pretty much everything I think lol
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
I just don't get why people can handle the same pain I'm experiencing better than I do. Some people go through life having 10 failed relationships and I would've killed myself before the third person leaves. Social media is a goldmine for those it gets better bullshit posts.

I don't deserve a better life. I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to exist. Of all the human beings of the world, why me? I am nothing but a speck of dust in the universe. It fucking pisses me off when some people claim that life will eventually be rainbows and sunshine for everyone. I do NOT have value in this world. I was only made to stay at home and chill with 2D characters. Why can't people fucking see the reason I want to kill myself? They're better off without me.

Happiness isn't for me if that means facing disappointment when it is gone. So basically I don't want to be happy anymore. Sometimes I self harm as a form of punishment.

Alright, maybe I should stop comparing myself to others. It is a bad habit of mine.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Not anymore. Sometimes. But as of late I just don't care if someone has it better than me. I've been trying to adjust my expectations from life and gratitude for what I have. It's too easy to compare yourself to others and it will make u feel bad. You have to change your perspective if you are constantly feeling insecure and envious of others. Life sucks for everyone at some time or another. Doesn't matter how awesome they look from the outside.
 
TheEndof

TheEndof

It's getting dark and it's getting cold
Dec 31, 2019
146
Not so much. I'm numb to the lives of others. I've never experienced being well adjusted and normal, so I find it hard to feel anything. Maybe some sadness because I'll never know what that's like, but that's lessened over the years. I think I'm always very aware that everyone is going through something. At least that's what I tell myself because I can't imagine not being miserable on some level.
 
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Flume

Flume

Villain
Oct 28, 2019
300
I'm just disappointed I got left in the dust, not so much about others peoples success.
 
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notjustyetagain

notjustyetagain

Oct 28, 2019
169
i used to want what some people had (e.g. talent, intelligence, skills, beauty), but not for decades. i still often compare myself with successful people, but instead of envy i just feel shame for not being/doing better. i feel like an insect compared to others. i'm also terrified of successful people -- don't know why. but, if i get to know a successful person and they're nice, my shame fades and i can feel happy for them, and grateful that they want to talk to me. if they're successful arseholes, i hate them more than unsuccessful arseholes, because i don't think people who are mean/bullies/cruel/etc. deserve success. unfortunately, in the workplace there's a tendency for psychopaths to be more successful.
 

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