Do you have friends?

[human909]

My attempt failed and the rope broke my curtains sadly, but do u have friends?

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I technically have one irl, but the fucker would rather do literally anything exept hang out.

 

[isa_nqra1]

Yeah I have friends:

F: fucking backstabbers
R: randomly ghosts me for no reason
I: I try to no think about them
E: Endless torment from them
N: No fucks given about my well being
D: do not know who to trust anymore
S: suffering

 

[CogitoMori]

There are people that are trying to be friendly to me, but I know it's just gonna be another trick and they'll be my partner's friends when he leaves me. He wants people to think I'm the one that abused him when it's the other way around. The only people I've tried to tell have left and I know everyone else will too. Nobody ever believes me.

 

[billie]

i only have friends on sasu

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Only on here but yes

 

[ma0]

I've got a few friends, but they all fit into one of 3 categories:

1. Psychopaths who only drive me deeper into depression
2. One trick ponies who can't take shit seriously
3. Talk constantly about things I have no interest in

Still, they're nice to have around. If it weren't for them, I'd already be dead.

 

[divinemistress36]

Just online. I cant maintain friendships I never want to get out of bed

 

[Greyhawk]

I have but not in the city where I live, I'm completely alone here and this is pretty far away from my home town where I go meet up my old friends. I also feel like I'm incapable of making new friends because of my social anxiety and bad social skills.

 

[Richard Langford]

I've been in a situation (caring for a elderly relative) that I've lost all my friends. Difficult to maintain friendships when you can't go out socially. And that's fine, I can appreciate that. I wouldn't expect friends to do that.

 

[SA1994EC]

No. No one wants to have anything to do with me. And I got used to it.

 

[Warkman1]

I was once, many years ago part of a tight group. Over time I have allowed that to slip away

 

[JesiBel]

I don't have any friends, I don't know how to interact with others. I've always been seen as a weirdo lol I think it's part of being an introvert and having low self-esteem..

I can consider my friends the little birds that come to my house every day to drink water, they are not scared of me when I am around (:

And also, the characters that I have created, I like drawing and sometimes I daydream about them.. (do they count as imaginary friends? lol)

 

[escape_from_hell]

All humans and animals seem to have built-in basic sense enough to hate me automatically and avoid forming any friendly relations with me. Even on a place like sasu I can't make friends, but probably people here are more intelligent and cautious than average so they can sense I am scum even more keenly.

 

[Broken247]

I don't have any friends that I see on the regular. I've never really had good friends. I'm a private person. I keep things on a superficial level I guess as a defensive measure.

 

[nomoredolor]

I am blessed to have friends and loved ones. It does make Ctb harder tho. Lots of anger and guilt tripping after my last attempt.

Anna

 

[Namelesa]

I have one friend that I am very close with and known for 2 years now. We were in a relationship originally and that broke up cus of it being too unstable cus of our mental health problems but our friendship has honestly improved cus of it and we still regularly interact with each other online but want to be able to meet physically again and maybe even live together. I don't know if I would call anyone here a friend but it definitely feels like more than acquaintances with some of the members here.

 

[Arrival03]

Nope, been almost five years since I stopped talking to the last one.

 

[lawlietsph]

Yeah I have friends:

F: fucking backstabbers
R: randomly ghosts me for no reason
I: I try to no think about them
E: Endless torment from them
N: No fucks given about my well being
D: do not know who to trust anymore
S: suffering

THIS... They call themselves my friend but they constantly make me feel like an unwanted piece of shit
No, I don't believe friendship exists anymore

 

[SoulWhisperer]

There's a rich guy that calls himself my "friend" but I cannot say the same because I don't resonate with him. That aside, I'm completely alone and on my own in my hell.

 

[Aergia]

need a "it's complicated" option

 

[areyousafe??]

I grew up in a very strict family environment where I wasn't allowed out other than to attend school, so it was hard to develop friendships. I'm naturally an introvert. No one at school wanted to be friends with me anyway. I only made one friend in university. I find it hard to open up to anyone irl.

 

[SleepingSheep]

Neither online nor in real life, I'm socially disadvantaged because of my autism.

 

[Arin]

I used to have 'friends' but I can't really be myself around them. Mostly it's just small talk, catching up, discussions about TV shows and gaming, and mindless, mundane shit that neither of us really care about. It all just felt kind of feels soulless really. I always have an irrational fear that anything personal I say will be used against me in some way, like to blackmail or manipulate me. As a result of that I usually find it very difficult to open up and talk sincerely about serious topics.

Recently a change happened which has meant I don't really see any of them anymore. When it happened, I wanted to keep in contact with all of them, so I kept on organising meetups, and group get-togethers and so on. It lasted a fair few months before I noticed / realised that it was always ME who was doing it all. Asking them when they're free, finding stuff to do, setting a date, organising transport, etc. None of them would've actually tried to keep in contact with me if I hadn't been reaching out to them and asking them everything. None of them wanted to stay in contact with me, and the only reason they ever responded was out of obligation, or perhaps pity.

Now, in real life I don't really have anyone. Previously, I'd always make friends with people who didn't have many - loners who sit on their own and don't speak to anyone, autists who are seen as too 'weird' for conventional friendships, non-conformist people who are ostracised because of how they express themselves. Unfortunately there aren't many of those where I am now so I've just ended up on my own, and it's difficult to make new friendships due to crippling social anxiety and an unwillingness to really 'trust' anyone and have an actual personality.

 

[L'absent]

Not now, they could interfere with my mental programming to commit suicide.

 

[human909]

Not now, they could interfere with my mental programming to commit suicide.

that's actually very smart.

 

[rllysuper]

my friends aren't nasty, but a lot of the time i feel detached from them. like if i were to leave the room no one would really notice or care.

 

[Kanoh]

Not anymore. I used to have a few but my recluse lifestyle eventually made them leave. Sometimes I wish I had any.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I don't know. There are a couple of people I hang out with from time to time, but… it's difficult for me to call them my friends. It's not their fault though, I opened up to them about the darker sides of myself and they didn't really take it too well. So, I don't really know what to think. I have always found it hard to see someone the same way after I try to lean on them and they can't handle it.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

No, I only had a few friends but I lost them all when I went manic last year.

When I lived in Los Angeles last year I was starting to make new friends left and right. LA and San Diego were the only places where I ever felt like I truly clicked with people and fit in. It was a mixture of people having a laid back vibe, and there being tons of activities to get involved in. Now it feels like I've had a taste of how good it feels to meet people, and it makes me even more depressed because I know I can't ever have that again.