Do you have friends?

[DarknessWave]

Surprise this question wasn't answered yet but do you have friends? I have a I guess kinda a mixed feeling, if I have friends or not. Sometimes it feels like I do but then sometimes it dosen't.

 

[Sans]

I don't.

 

[underduvet]

I think I have friends but I feel like I think about them far more than they think about me. I think if I were to stop communicating with them, I would simply disappear. I feel very isolated, like I have never connected with them. Sometimes I think I might be a burden on them. Sometimes I wish they never knew me. Sometimes I think noone truly cares about me.

 

[torturedmind]

I don't have friends now, but I did in the past. I find myself wishing I had friends, but I don't have the mental energy or the confidence to pursue friendships. I also don't think I am very capable of being a good friend. I'm too depressed

 

[Blueberry Panic]

They all leave

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nope, I haven't had any irl friends since high school. I cut them all off by around grade 11. It wasn't because they were bad or anything, rather I didn't want to have friends anymore since I found friendships to be too stressful to deal with. I have imaginary friends but that is it.

It's funny because I used to have a lot of friends when I was younger but as I got older it became harder to make friends, especially in high school. Now I don't even want them, lol.

 

[jan28]

 

[TransTaxEvader]

All internet friends. No IRL friends, havent had any since elementary school.

Happy to be friends with any of you if you'd like :3

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

Nope. I'm starting to wonder if I ever did, to be honest. Most people only wanted me around because I could provide something they didn't have, and the moment I didn't I may as well not have existed.

I don't blame anyone for not wanting to be friends with me. I'm a pretty rotten person all around.

 

[Outofoptions1]

My girlfriend was my only true friend. Now that she's gone, I have 0. The rest are just glorified acquaintances.

 

[galaxid]

There are people who'd say I'm their friend, but I don't know if I reciprocate that sentiment. I've been a terrible friend because I've been unwell. Eventually I stopped being a presence in their lives, and they continue on their merry way without me. It doesn't bother me too much these days because I just don't have the energy anymore.

I voted yes because I have one actual friend I can confide in. Unfortunately my partner hardly qualifies as a 'friend' because we don't talk to each other. At all. Getting conversation out of them is like pulling teeth.

Works for them, though. When I'm depressed, I'm not rambling in their presence for an hour about absolutely nothing, getting zero response every single time because it's better to sit there in complete silence than actually engage with anything I have to say.

I'm really bitter about this, oops.

 

[FishRain3469]

I have numerous friends, but not near as many as I used to. I believe it happened for a combination of reasons... My negative/ pessimistic attitude, grudges/ resentments, too sensitive /emotional... the list goes on sadly... Fml. =/

 

[Spearmint]

Not really, I know people but real connection is impossible. Most of humanity is shit so what's the point

 

[Arrival03]

I've only ever had one actual friend, and I haven't talked to him in over a decade.

 

[PlasticFace]

No. I used to have a small circle of close friends but I've been betrayed by them too many times. We had one of our friends ctb and since then, we all kind of dispersed.
Outside of old friends, I don't care to make relationships with people. I haven't really talked to anyone in a friendly way for a couple years now. I haven't even been on SaSu for a while haha!
Does it really matter who I know and who knows me? I'd rather nobody know me so I can float around the world on my own accord. Friends are hard and difficult. I'd rather be by myself, always.

 

[cantwaittoleave]

my only friend i think hates me and has been ignoring me for a stupid reason. so, essentially, no.

 

[freethemindperson]

No. The closest thing I have to life companions at this current time are my work associates, and I am being pathetically generous. Besides that my mind draws a long fucking blank. This subject matter is pissing me off more and more as the days go by, I really can't pretend to feel any other way.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

No . Why do i have to get friends? or a gf or anything?

I don't have to do anything.

I don't need nor want any kind of relationship with a human.

why do i have to want that ?

the only thing i want is means and ability to ctb asap

life is meaningless. nothing matters except avoiding unbearable pain.

nothing that i could do will matter in a 1000 years. or that anyone could do today or in their life . what about in a trillion years? what will matter then? nothing . we are just insignificant specs

all the above holds even if i didn't know i don't have anything in common wtih any human anyway in regards to basic philosophy of life . not here not anywhere . just one example : imo a human is only cells , chemical reactions , a machine . i haven't met anyone who sees life and everything from that perspective . like what am i cells a brain brain cells , a brain that can suffer

me and a human is just cells chemical and that life is meanignless.

the above is trur even if i didn't know relationships cause stress and pain ( romantic breakup)

the above are layers on top of layers and i haven't said everything. this is just about relationships with other humans there is much more on this and even more on why i hate existence life itself. and why i only adore non-existence as that is what gets me away and saves me from hell this world and this life

 

[jellie]

I have four but they are all across the country from me. For reference I am on the east coast (usa) for college and they are on the west coast. I have no friends at college so I functionally have no friends due to the fact that my four friends are not online very commonly and we only text maybe 1-2 times a week. its lonely and it sucks

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Sort of. I don't know if "Friend" is really the best word though.

 

[citrusrope]

None at all I think. Partly my own fault though.

 

[wafflepancake]

Nope, none at all.. don't think I've ever really had a single friend

 

[sadsoni]

This! Friends are work which I haven't managed to do for some years now. So the system has collapsed. Now I only have family, neighbours, acquaintances and many "old friends".

 

[Nobodi]

I have no one. I live by myself and it's just work and home I don't drink or go to parties

I have no one. I live by myself and it's just work and home I don't drink or go to parties

And I'm in my mid 20s

 

[sadsoni]

Nope. I'm starting to wonder if I ever did, to be honest. Most people only wanted me around because I could provide something they didn't have, and the moment I didn't I may as well not have existed.

I don't blame anyone for not wanting to be friends with me. I'm a pretty rotten person all around.

Friendship is ultimately transactional.

 

[Thomas Rekowicz]

I have many friends i am very social person but having friends is a problem when you gonna CTB because my departure will be like atomic bomb explosion for their lives. IT will deeply hurt many people as they value me as a good person. The will get over with IT but IT take at least year to fully recover. I do not want to hurt them but there is no other way. I am sacred that my closest friends may get depression after i will be gone.

 

[sadsoni]

Seems most of us can count our friends in one hand.

 

[happysunnydayy]

A few but I still feel empty around them

 

[Permanoir]

I only have acquaintances, and while it would be nice to have a friend, I hesitate because I wouldn't want to hurt anyone else if I choose to ctb.

 

[bananaolympus]

No i pushed away every frienship i had without any reason i wasn't even depressed at the time