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lanitoasmr

lanitoasmr

Member
Mar 7, 2020
69
I feel so confused
 
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nonamegirl

Student
Jan 6, 2020
183
Do I still have hope?

Yes. At least partially. If I didnt have any left it would be = lights out for me.

But even then I'd have hope.......Hope in succeding with my chosen method. Hope that it would not be too painful ect.

"hope is the last to die"
 
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Woodnote

Woodnote

Goodbye
Oct 23, 2019
277
I do but it's fading..
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Hope comes and hope goes. If you still have any hope then you still have something to live for!
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,184
I do...
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
I am trying to rebuild my life and enjoy everyday as much as I can. I'm doing my best.
 
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pole

Global Mod
Sep 18, 2018
1,385
always in the worst way.

false hope, wishful thinking, even when everythings terrible, it's just awful and uncontrollable.
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
Yes, a hope that I will be able to pay for rent somehow in a week.
 
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silent staring void

Student
Jan 22, 2020
145
I used to think I have hope but now I think I'm probably just too stupid to understand how terrible everything is lol.
 
Luna77

Luna77

Member
Mar 19, 2020
38
I feel so confused
Me too. This is my first time posting here. I'm trying to look for blessings anywhere I can, this is a comforting site. My thoughts have been darker again lately, they always come back, I've been thinking of escape. So I can just watch the world from above in the atmosphere with no more earthly issues to contend with. And hang out with cool others who have ctb
Me too. This is my first time posting here. I'm trying to look for blessings anywhere I can, this is a comforting site. My thoughts have been darker again lately, they always come back, I've been thinking of escape. So I can just watch the world from above in the atmosphere with no more earthly issues to contend with. And hang out with cool others who have ctb
People here seem really cool, nice to meet you all, thanks. Not sure what else to say right now. Peace & love
Me too. This is my first time posting here. I'm trying to look for blessings anywhere I can, this is a comforting site. My thoughts have been darker again lately, they always come back, I've been thinking of escape. So I can just watch the world from above in the atmosphere with no more earthly issues to contend with. And hang out with cool others who have ctb
People here seem really cool, nice to meet you all, thanks. Not sure what else to say right now. Peace & love
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Hard to tell if I have hope or desperation.
 
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moonandstars

Member
Apr 30, 2020
28
Do I still have hope?

Yes. At least partially. If I didnt have any left it would be = lights out for me.

But even then I'd have hope.......Hope in succeding with my chosen method. Hope that it would not be too painful ect.

"hope is the last to die"
i do but it's slowly going
 
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qwerty32

I tried.
Apr 13, 2020
96
I think I dug myself into a hole so it's fading away.
 
Ipassbutter

Ipassbutter

Member
Feb 24, 2019
49
No hope for me. The only thing keeping me going, and has been for years, is inaccessibility to a good method and my own cowardice.
 
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HeartbrokenViking1

Member
Apr 16, 2020
16
I went out with friends today, literally had the best pizza I have ever had in my life and a few good beers. Made everyone laugh. Now back home I try to remember those good feelings while I am coming down from the happiness.
So there is some hope that I will be able to get more of those feelings and less of the bad ones if I keep saying yes to opportunities like those.
 
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rebelsue

Hope Addict
Dec 12, 2019
172
Yep hope is what is keeping me here. I am a hope addict. I want nothing more than to find my next hope fix. I will find hope in just about anything. It's a weird dialectic seeing as how I am a naturally very pessimistic person.
 
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Kumachan

Specialist
Mar 5, 2020
396
nope, also tired of hoping, waiting, no desire to do anything whatsoever, only C T B
 
kyle

kyle

Sleeping away all my problems
May 3, 2020
62
I have very much hope left and I hope you find some of that hope too.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
Yes. I'm still holding on to hope and seeking out alternative solutions and pathways in my life
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Yes. I've found it 20 years later after my first symptoms started. I am using a dianabol and Testosterone, combination in a small dose with an endocrinologist. It's like trt, or Testosterone treatment which eliminates me feeling bad. Life is a challenge of it's own now.
 
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TotallyIsolated

Mage
Nov 25, 2019
590
I don't have hope, but medication allows me to function.
 
iknowwhatyouredoing

iknowwhatyouredoing

something inside turned the lights out
Jan 30, 2020
29
ive decided its impossible for me to feel hopeful about the future so i just try to focus on the present as much as possible. meditation helps
 

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