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Forever Sleep
Earned it we have...
- May 4, 2022
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Would you say you still have strong desires or goals in life? It can be for anything- finding love, career ambitions, desire to travel, sports, interests, hobbies whatever. Or, is it more a case that you feel stuck here for now but you still try to get through via the things that maybe used to interest you? Or- is it more that you have goals but feel they are utterly out of reach?
I think I realised my ultimate goals were in part out of reach but also that maybe they wouldn't make me all that happy ultimately. I've also lost a lot of my ambition or desire for things in life. Not exactly anhedonia. I am still capable of enjoying things. I just can't be bothered to do them so much now! Plus the ratio of earning money to do them vs. spending it is just ridiculously lop sided.
Really though- it feels like- when you don't even particularly want things in life- and sustaining it is just an uphill struggle. I mean- the conclusion is pretty obvious- no? Why am I bothering? I know why for me- it's to not upset my Dad but, beyond that, I wonder just how quickly common sense will lead me to do what I need to to get the hell out of dodge!
I think I realised my ultimate goals were in part out of reach but also that maybe they wouldn't make me all that happy ultimately. I've also lost a lot of my ambition or desire for things in life. Not exactly anhedonia. I am still capable of enjoying things. I just can't be bothered to do them so much now! Plus the ratio of earning money to do them vs. spending it is just ridiculously lop sided.
Really though- it feels like- when you don't even particularly want things in life- and sustaining it is just an uphill struggle. I mean- the conclusion is pretty obvious- no? Why am I bothering? I know why for me- it's to not upset my Dad but, beyond that, I wonder just how quickly common sense will lead me to do what I need to to get the hell out of dodge!