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- Aug 18, 2020
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What a great competition isn't it?
In my self-help group I debated antinatalism. And I told them feel uncomfortable with the concept of life because of the following reason. We are 8 billion people on this planet. Statistically, it is likely there are like 10 k people (tbh I think there are way more but they did not believe even that amount lol) whose lives are an extreme torture chamber. Probably over decades with barely any hope. I told them I don't necessarily think these people commit suicide. I told them I think it is more frightening if these people are paralyzed or unable to communicate their pain. And some of them are probably unable to end their lives.
I think one woman thought I consider me to belong to these top 10k. Honestly, I certainly don't think so. Maybe in Germany I belong to the top 1-3 % of people with the worst mental pain. But holy shit top 10 k worst lives of the whole world. I feel pretty privileged when I read some stories in this forum. Yes I was abused and bullied as child and teenager. Yes my therapists thought I am a hopeless case that is going to kill himself. Yes I cannot work and poverty will kill me.
But I certainly don't have hubris to pretend that. My parents support me fully (after ruining my life). Also financially. I have extremely good and loyal friends. I live in fucking Germany and my insurance covers a lot completely for free. Solely the fact I could open up in this self-help group without getting punished shows that I am privileged.
I still think my life is hell. I experience severe mental agony. But I argumented with the worst lives on this planet and I don't think I belong to them. The people in this group have vanilla issues. They argumented all people have lows and moments of joy. Lol. I told them we might have different notions what extremely horrible lives mean and which pain is involved in these cases.
So I wanted to talk in my self-help group about the fact that I visit a suicide forum. This is how it went...
We were a big group. Many people also in this forum told me not to do it. I have found a way. I told them that I could tell an anecdote which is not appropriate for a self-help group. I told them I will change the anecdote because it is not good for a self-help group. There was a voting everyone...
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In my self-help group I debated antinatalism. And I told them feel uncomfortable with the concept of life because of the following reason. We are 8 billion people on this planet. Statistically, it is likely there are like 10 k people (tbh I think there are way more but they did not believe even that amount lol) whose lives are an extreme torture chamber. Probably over decades with barely any hope. I told them I don't necessarily think these people commit suicide. I told them I think it is more frightening if these people are paralyzed or unable to communicate their pain. And some of them are probably unable to end their lives.
I think one woman thought I consider me to belong to these top 10k. Honestly, I certainly don't think so. Maybe in Germany I belong to the top 1-3 % of people with the worst mental pain. But holy shit top 10 k worst lives of the whole world. I feel pretty privileged when I read some stories in this forum. Yes I was abused and bullied as child and teenager. Yes my therapists thought I am a hopeless case that is going to kill himself. Yes I cannot work and poverty will kill me.
But I certainly don't have hubris to pretend that. My parents support me fully (after ruining my life). Also financially. I have extremely good and loyal friends. I live in fucking Germany and my insurance covers a lot completely for free. Solely the fact I could open up in this self-help group without getting punished shows that I am privileged.
I still think my life is hell. I experience severe mental agony. But I argumented with the worst lives on this planet and I don't think I belong to them. The people in this group have vanilla issues. They argumented all people have lows and moments of joy. Lol. I told them we might have different notions what extremely horrible lives mean and which pain is involved in these cases.