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- Aug 18, 2020
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After the last self-help group session I had a deep talk with a woman about suicide. Afterwards she hugged me. She initiated the conversation. I am often quite open about my suicidality in the group and I think she liked that. I think she wanted to know my opinion on some suicide related questions because it seems like they consider me a suicide expert. I also told in that group that I had contact with people online who committed suicide eventually.
She seemed to be the overthinking kind of person. I think I am the same and we both never attempted. But my pain and suicidality level seem to be much higher. I had the thought I cannot imagine that this woman could go through with at least in her current condition. Of course I did not express that loudly.
Personally, sometimes I question whether I am able to kill myself I am not impulsive enough but I am quite rational. My life is a nightmare I think I gonna kill myself when my mom dies, gets dementia or ends up a nursing case because of her strokes. My mom told me today she feels quite horrible and could die any time. I think she exaggerated it a little bit. -> she is not suicidal.
I had a guilty conscience for questioning her (the self-help group woman's) suicidality. It was sort of judgemental but I think many have those thoughts sometimes. However, rationally I think I am not very skilled to evaluate that. I had a meeting with a bipolar dad in another self-help group. Several members of his family committed suicide. He attempted several times in a serious way and I could see it in his eyes he was deadly serious and there was no hope. I think he still lives though.
I took the suicidal woman very serious and I treated her as very serious suicidal case because I am aware I cannot read her mind. I gave her the advice I would give myself. Go to a day care clinic if you get very suicidal. I think she was overthinking her decision to go to a clinic. The day care clinics were very good where I went to.
She seemed to be the overthinking kind of person. I think I am the same and we both never attempted. But my pain and suicidality level seem to be much higher. I had the thought I cannot imagine that this woman could go through with at least in her current condition. Of course I did not express that loudly.
Personally, sometimes I question whether I am able to kill myself I am not impulsive enough but I am quite rational. My life is a nightmare I think I gonna kill myself when my mom dies, gets dementia or ends up a nursing case because of her strokes. My mom told me today she feels quite horrible and could die any time. I think she exaggerated it a little bit. -> she is not suicidal.
I had a guilty conscience for questioning her (the self-help group woman's) suicidality. It was sort of judgemental but I think many have those thoughts sometimes. However, rationally I think I am not very skilled to evaluate that. I had a meeting with a bipolar dad in another self-help group. Several members of his family committed suicide. He attempted several times in a serious way and I could see it in his eyes he was deadly serious and there was no hope. I think he still lives though.
I took the suicidal woman very serious and I treated her as very serious suicidal case because I am aware I cannot read her mind. I gave her the advice I would give myself. Go to a day care clinic if you get very suicidal. I think she was overthinking her decision to go to a clinic. The day care clinics were very good where I went to.
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