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darkest

darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
62
with all the knowledge you have so far of your life, if it were like a video game where you could rebirth with extra points for experience but in this case it's knowledge of better decisions, would you wish to start over?
 
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yousaidimsweet

yousaidimsweet

your star student
Nov 30, 2024
50
yes! from high school to uni i wasn't sure what career path i wanted to take but always knew i wanted to be in the psychology field. now i've realized that i want to be a psychiatrist (aka go to medical school) and unfortunately i need to make up for time lost to obtain clinical hours and volunteer at hospitals etc. wish i could start that all over so i can just go straight to medical school.
 
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SadRatQueen

SadRatQueen

Professional Crybaby
Dec 27, 2024
61
Both yes and no. I would absolutely hate to go through the hell that was my childhood again. Plus the knowledge of my mother getting cancer and dying on my 20th birthday also doesn't make me thrilled to experience again.

But it would be nice though, to get a redo on everything. Maybe I could actually make myself into someone who isn't worth dying.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,512
Yes, every fucking day.
 
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CogitoMori

Specialist
Oct 21, 2024
338
Yes. There are so many things I would do differently
 
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Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
516
Question is what would you change if you could go back
 
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darkest

darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
62
Question is what would you change if you could go back
make decisions differently with the knowledge you have, seeing things in a different light now that you know the outcome and how most decisions aren't that important, etc
 
dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Arcanist
Nov 11, 2024
469
I don't want to start over. I just want to sleep forever.
 
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Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
516
The only benefit i got from redoing everything would be. That i dont stress out about useless stuff.

Everything gonna be alright if you walk in the right direction. Dont need to walk everyday in the right direction. Just most of the time.

My life would be much easier that way, but its good now
 
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Daft-Bear

Daft-Bear

Unbearable
Jun 27, 2023
75
IDK if I'd start over necessarily. Would I still have dysthymia? Would my circumstances have changed? If not, then Idk if the idea is worth pursuing. I didn't choose to be dysthymic, and I didn't choose to want to ctb. Very few things in life are a legitimate choice, they just are. If the fundamental circumstances and brain chemistry are altered to accommodate more favorable outcomes then I would cease to be me entirely.

I guess I'd just end up in the same situation all things considered. My fate is sealed and I never had much of a choice. If I met the right people earlier in life, maybe they could have saved me from the loneliness that forces painful self reflection, or maybe not. It's hard for me to determine if someone could have saved me somewhere along the way or if I was cursed by my biology from the get go
 
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EternalLight

EternalLight

Member
Dec 26, 2024
52
Probably not, because there's a very high chance that all the things that led up to the only time in my life that I was truly happy wouldn't be aligned, and I wouldn't trade that one period for the world. It could be argued that I'd have the opportunity to improve upon my circumstances, but certain things would be unavoidable regardless of the knowledge I have now, and going through the nightmare of my childhood is not something I'd like to experience again. I already experience it enough every day in my mind as it is.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,134
I have dreamed about being able to go back in time and talk to myself as a child, so yes. There are a few major life choices that got me here and if I could do them differently I would have a much better life.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,673
No, I just wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish for this existence rather I just want to cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, I find it the most cruel, futile burden having to exist and I see it as deeply undesirable to exist. I just wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering, human existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me, it's something I never would have chosen and I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, existence itself really is the true problem to me and it's one that only ceasing to exist could bring me peace from, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,618
Fuck no, I want to die to escape life. I don't want to be indulged in it even more
 
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SA1994EC

Member
Jan 28, 2021
182
No. because I am way beyond the point where I could think of recovering or staring over. I just need to leave here.
I wish those who can still have hope for starting over the best of luck. I really wish I were there in life.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
225
Yes, just to put an end to everything as soon as possible.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

I'm ready for Hell
Oct 21, 2024
164
No. My life would still be the same rerun, stuck in a endless replay. I can't go through again what I've already been through.
 
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toxicjester

toxicjester

Because you know in a moment, it could all..POW!
Dec 11, 2023
146
everyday of my life. If I could start over I wouldn't try to be selfish and cry and have things for myself. I'd pour into my studies and not have friends or relationships and be someone that my family could be proud of. Or even just move far away from them once I was successful enough so I could ctb and have it not be a problem
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,862
i would never want life in any form even for a minute more ever . no one can convince me there is an objective reason why i should want to live even for a minute.

my studies on what life is = cells, and what the universe is entropy , further guarantee that once this brain dies i will never exist again which is what i want non-existence forever no rebirth ever.

most might not know what entropy is but we've seen it thousands of times. one thing is that everything requires a constant power source. and everything goes to equilibrium without a constant power source and or informed constant work.

if you leave a hot cup of coffee or food in a cold room we know what will happen. they will cool and the temperature of the cofee and the air in the room will be the same exact , euquilibrium. does anyone even question why this happens . and even if the hot coffee was sealed in plastic cup with a top it will eventually cool. that is what the universe does and is , everything goes to equlibrium . it's one the reasonss why the universe has always expanded.


even the Sun's heat is being dissapated out into space the next nearest star is 25 trillion miles away an unimaginable void just between stars where the heat will dissapate to nothing eventually . the Sun will also die and the universe continue to expand foreve

if you leave a hot cup of coffee or food in a cold room we know what will happen . the coffee food cannot stay warm unless you do the work to put it on a heating machine and use energy. same thing for charging a phone, gas for a car, . heating a house. feeding a human brain 3 times a day. everything requires constant energy source to continue existing . this is just one reason of entropy why a soul is impossible as there can be no such source of infinite energy to power a soul for trillions of years .

there is also the property of disorder of entropy all systems break down die decay go to disorder .that's what the universe is entropy. you have to constantly clean and fix everything . every human and animal decays and dies , every machine gets old and breaks down.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,337
No. I don't regret any major decision I made. Even if they weren't the best decision in hindsight, if I hadn't made that same decision, I expect I would have gone through life thinking 'what if'. I don't actually think a different decision at any juncture would have made me happier either. Also, the very worst things that happened in my life were unpreventable. They were either life shit- family and friends dying or, decisions other people made that impacted me. Plus, starting again would mean more life when, I want there to be less!
 
Warkman1

Warkman1

Member
Jan 10, 2025
63
It's not a question I entertain really. I am where I am, my only question is when I choose to exit or if I let fate decide that for me
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
530
No. In all honesty, I don't things would play out too differently.
 
yeahyeahyeahfan

yeahyeahyeahfan

Member
Jan 1, 2025
15
I fantasize about it constantly, honestly. Getting to experience all the things I missed out on, being able to save some people I lost, undoing my many many fuckups… please.
 
CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
2,692
no want exst, mayb time travle crtn pnt ok ,strt agn no ok
 
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EG2025

Member
Jan 9, 2025
6
If I started again knowing everything I do now? Yeah, I'd probably make different choices. Imevitably I'd avoid a lot of my mistakes. Find another way through life that would leave me, if nothing else, richer. And If my brain is inevitably as shit as I suspect and fear that it is, then I would at least be able to set myself up with a fortune to use to numb my suffering until the inevitable.

But if I just restarted exactly as it was before with nothing different from the first time? Hell no. Absolutely not. I would have to have retained my knowledge of the stockmarket and crypto and so on. Invest in IBM, then netflix, then bitcoin.
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
345
Fuck yeah, as long as I could bring back the knowledge and experience that would prevent the horrible mistakes that destroyed my life. I would hate to relive my life with bipolar, but if I had known about it sooner I could have prevented so much damage it makes me cry to even think about it.
 

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