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wandafurudayz

wandafurudayz

Member
Aug 27, 2024
16
If i had to say i had a dream or aspiration in life it would be to become a idol or be a famous socialite. Its a far stretch from reality but still!
I love all the expensive and pretty outfits, glittery makeup, charming personas. I dont have an idol or model body so im always working on it.

i like this site alot
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
343
No. I don't want anything anymore except to die.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,155
You don't have to be famous to prep yourself up- I think I could start wearing a black robe with a scarf, or I dunno. I look too "average" currently, it bores me..
 
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Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Here for a bad time, not a long time
May 9, 2024
812
I don't really care about being famous, frankly. I'm arguably already thin (but maybe you'd think I'm fat lol), conventionally good-looking (used to model regularly and still do occasionally) but I just want to actually be able to stop seeing myself as an ogre the size of a fucking double door. I've had 2 major plastic surgeries as well as lip filler and that makes me feel like a fraud because I'm not "naturally" good-looking.

I was a victim of childhood sexual abuse and I've always been plagued by a pervasive sense of worthlessness. I always feel like I don't deserve to wear anything nice. Same with putting on makeup. It's like painting a pig - fucking pointless. I'm autistic and have severe PTSD so no one is ever going to like me once they get to know me beyond the surface level anyways. It doesn't matter what I look like because I hate myself no matter what, but I still obsess over my appearance because I was bullied severely for my looks as a kid and I'll do anything to avoid that feeling of humiliation.

Anyways I apologize for trauma dumping like this. It's not your fault and I'm responsible for my own triggers but frankly I'm suffering from memories.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
797
I'm already semi-thin and the only fame I'd really be interested in is creative fame. Mostly just because I think it'd be cool to make something that advances music/film/storytelling/etc as a whole or at least makes a lot of people happy somehow
being a Kardashian sounds horrible lol
 
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BecomingTired

BecomingTired

Lov3rBoy<3
Feb 23, 2024
114
Idk. I thought about it a few times but in more of a random thought rather than anything meaningful, but I already know that something like fame would already screw with my already fucked up mind. I already have to try to keep myself together in front of other people and act far differently than i actually am irl to make a bunch of "friends" and acquaintances; I'd probably completely break if I had to do it on such a major scale too.
 
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Plentiful_Despair

Plentiful_Despair

Experienced
Aug 23, 2024
265
Being famous would be a nightmare for me. I hate it when everyones attention is on me, I can handle small groups of people or when I'm just a nameless face in a metal concert, but to be on stage or have thousands of followers online? no.
 
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wandafurudayz

wandafurudayz

Member
Aug 27, 2024
16
You don't have to be famous to prep yourself up- I think I could start wearing a black robe with a scarf, or I dunno. I look too "average" currently, it bores me..
yeah thats true. I try and get into new fashions or subcultures if i think im looking a little plain. but still it would be nice to not have to worry about money
I don't really care about being famous, frankly. I'm arguably already thin (but maybe you'd think I'm fat lol), conventionally good-looking (used to model regularly and still do occasionally) but I just want to actually be able to stop seeing myself as an ogre the size of a fucking double door. I've had 2 major plastic surgeries as well as lip filler and that makes me feel like a fraud because I'm not "naturally" good-looking.

I was a victim of childhood sexual abuse and I've always been plagued by a pervasive sense of worthlessness. I always feel like I don't deserve to wear anything nice. Same with putting on makeup. It's like painting a pig - fucking pointless. I'm autistic and have severe PTSD so no one is ever going to like me once they get to know me beyond the surface level anyways. It doesn't matter what I look like because I hate myself no matter what, but I still obsess over my appearance because I was bullied severely for my looks as a kid and I'll do anything to avoid that feeling of humiliation.

Anyways I apologize for trauma dumping like this. It's not your fault and I'm responsible for my own triggers but frankly I'm suffering from memories.
its okay to dump. im a victim too so i can see where youre coming from with the feelings of worthlessness and not being able to love yourself properly.
 
SteamaHorns

SteamaHorns

Member
Aug 2, 2024
65
Already thin because I never felt the strong need to eat outside of snacks which has probably screwed up my health. I always wanted to be famous though, through my early teenage years I was pretty dead-set on getting famous in the music or combat sports world and then somehow die by the time I reached the age of 40. I still wish that I could've somehow reached that sort of status alongside having a meaningful impact through it, but I've pretty much lost hope on it. Not really about it though, just disappointed that I never tried hard enough for it. Hope you find satisfaction in whatever you're working towards though.
 
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33-vertebrae

33-vertebrae

Puella Aeternus
Sep 6, 2024
86
I'd take being rich over fame.

At least the money would heavily subdue majority of my problems.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,155
yeah thats true. I try and get into new fashions or subcultures if i think im looking a little plain. but still it would be nice to not have to worry about money
Hm. I wonder how "famous people" became successful- *what kind of people they are and how do they work to get there.

It's lot of hard work, but if person can get excited about learning new skills, it would be better fuel than strict self-discipline.

I am currently reading a book called The Artist way by Julian Cameron, and I think it would suit anyone who is interested in living a more creative lifestyle..

Edit:* Naturally, you have to see those qualities in yourself to act like one.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,463
Yeah I bring up fame everyday ask @sserafim
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

In the Service of the Queen
Sep 19, 2023
1,900
I thought about it a lot when I was younger. It was one of those "oh if I could only have that, then things would be okay" ideals. An excuse not to focus on anything else. A justification for my existence. If I were famous, I would know for sure that I was worth something. There's this feeling that it would prove how special I am. If people connected with my music, born from my individual human experience, then I must be something greater than your average run-of-the-mill drone who doesn't seek anything deeper from life.

It's hard to accept that even if you are special in some way, you're still in the bell curve. Being famous on merit rather than luck sounds exhausting. You can be the mostest specialyist person on earth in your mind but there are a billion other people out there who think the same and are working towards being the best: and every second you aren't putting in work they're getting ahead. In the end, I settled on being balanced.

I still want people to connect to my music (it is funny in hindsight how far I had to go to get close to being professional sounding. The difference between my stuff then and now is night and day. It's certainly not something that can just happen) but it doesn't have to be the masses. Being thought well of by people you know to be good who are close to you would ultimately be more fulfilling.

It is fun to think about though, right? I will daydream sometimes about being recognized on the street and having a good reputation.
 
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Marine

Marine

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Jul 5, 2020
678
Not really famous but skinny, youthful, free of major flaws and beautiful yes.
 
Sunghoon

Sunghoon

#1 Wasted sperm
Jul 18, 2024
28
Already thin because I never felt the strong need to eat outside of snacks which has probably screwed up my health. I always wanted to be famous though, through my early teenage years I was pretty dead-set on getting famous in the music or combat sports world and then somehow die by the time I reached the age of 40. I still wish that I could've somehow reached that sort of status alongside having a meaningful impact through it, but I've pretty much lost hope on it. Not really about it though, just disappointed that I never tried hard enough for it. Hope you find satisfaction in whatever you're working towards though.
What do you regret not doing? I'm kinda in the same boat but like was it depression or the fear of failing that stopped u?
 
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qw3rty259

Experienced
Jun 19, 2023
265
I would prefer to just be healthy. Striving to get thin is okay, but until when you feel like it does harm to you. I don't like that whole idol thing and fashion, since you're basically trying to conform to it and fit in. I think that If you are able to stay true to yourself and do something really meaningful instead of just dressing like others do, your style can become influential in the future, no matter how bold, weird or maybe even unstylish and boring it might be for the current time
 
kat6

kat6

a cloud of smoke trying to occupy space
Sep 25, 2024
82
I don't care about fameā€¦ but I would love to be rich. I don't care about fancy or name brand stuff. I just want the financial security of knowing I can have a comfortable life forever without working. It must be so freeing to be able to engage in art and music without feeling the pressure to monetize it or "be successful". Or the need to have a "real job" consuming most of your time, little/no time and energy for art, hobbies, etc and no time for anything else.
 
N7_Alliance_Marine

N7_Alliance_Marine

Student
Sep 29, 2024
104
I miss being in good shape. I loved running, but can't really do that anymore.
 
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Privateer2368

Member
Aug 18, 2024
65
Oh, gods, no.

I got a taste of what it must have been like to be 19th century aristocracy during my time in the army- an officers' mess is really something else, especially if you've got friends in the Donkey Wallopers- but I'm just as happy sitting on an upturned fish box drinking builder's tea if the company is good.

I don't fancy fame at all. I'm pretty well known in the organisation I work for after pulling off a supposedly 'heroic' rescue shortly after I joined (if they think that was heroic, they can't get out much) and it makes me rather uncomfortable when people I've never heard of say 'oh, hey, you're the guy who...'.

I like to be able to keep low and move fast, you know?
 
Zanmato

Zanmato

Student
Apr 4, 2024
120
I don't think I would care about fame that much, but it would have be good being able to live playing in a band.
 
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falling_snow

falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
518
i wish i could die pretty and famous, maybe then id want to live a bit more
 
amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
258
I have too much social anxiety to want to be famous. I would like to be thin(ner). I have been in the past, when I jogged and walked a lot. Not feeling too much motivation to do that right now, though. I would like to be well off, though, that would solve many of my current problems.
 
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ezziiooo678

ezziiooo678

Member
Oct 11, 2024
23
pretty much but i'm not too sure how i'd feel being famous
 
vadim

vadim

Disqualified From Being Human
Aug 10, 2023
119
Honestly I can't lie, I can't think of anything better than being extremely skinny and admired.
 

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