does anyone else want their death to be “famous” ?

[bloodmania]

i know it wont matter because i'll be dead but i daydream a lot about people taking pictures of my corpse or recording me actually doing it and then posting it online and talking about me and idolizing me. like i said it doesnt even matter because i wont see the aftermath since i'll be dead but idk , i just like thinking about what people would say about my death and i fantasize about people archiving all my internet posts and being able to relate to my struggles. i dont know why i do this it doesnt make sense the more i think about it

 

[SVEN]

Never mind my death, I want my life to be anonymous .. and, thus far, it pretty much is.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

No, I'd rather fade into relative obscurity as if I never really existed

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

Not so much famous but I would hate to ctb and then a major celebrity death happening right after it, ngl. I want my own day, lol.

 

[NonEssential]

I wouldn't want myself on some gore site, but maybe just a memorial assembly at school or something so people actually acknowledge my (now lack of) existence

 

[tfnb]

I'd rather my body was never discovered
Maybe some lore about how I got away with some sort of heinous or miraculous crime

But the never discovered part is the most important part

 

[derpyderpins]

We're all looking for purpose, and a lot of mental roads lead to wanting fame as part of a belief that fame proves that - regardless of what a "good" "purpose" is - you have been selected as one of the humans worth remembering, so you have fulfilled an undefined "purpose" more than most.

Many people have kids for the selfish reason of continuing their legacy or bloodline or something like that, achieving a type of immortality. This is foolish, as your kids are their own person, and leads to parents pressuring their kids to fulfill the dreams that they failed in. Fame, on the other hand, is immortality for you, which eases the minds anxiety about lacking purpose, about all the suffering in life being for naught.

"I'd rather be famous than righteous or holy anyday."

I think it's foolish, although I've desired fame for much of my life. It's skipping the hard work of digging deep and discovering what is actually important and how to actually be at peace. It can be a comforting daydream, though.

 

[yehxlder.666]

Not my death tbh, just want some friends to know about it, not too much people. But i wish that after i die people cherish what i did in life, and not see my death as a bad thing at all.

 

[JesiBel]

I think the fact that we are not going to "die naturally" makes us a little more "famous" than the rest of the people. The neighbors or people around us will remember us as "the one who committed suicide."

I prefer privacy and anonymity, but suicide is something "negative" for ordinary people, so we will surely have "our moment of fame."

 

[ma0]

Absolutely not. At most, maybe a local tragedy, but no way in hell do I want my death to be the highlight of my existence.

 

[CatLvr]

Nope. Not at all.

 

[cme-dme]

i know it wont matter because i'll be dead but i daydream a lot about people taking pictures of my corpse or recording me actually doing it and then posting it online and talking about me and idolizing me. like i said it doesnt even matter because i wont see the aftermath since i'll be dead but idk , i just like thinking about what people would say about my death and i fantasize about people archiving all my internet posts and being able to relate to my struggles. i dont know why i do this it doesnt make sense the more i think about it

Sometimes I have selfish thoughts about what people would say about me after I'm gone. I feel like I don't fully know what people think about me. Would they say good things or bad things? What memories would they recall with me? I wouldn't know because I'm dead but I like to imagine I'd be looked back on positively.
I would only want my close friends and family to know about my suicide though. I wouldn't want to be famous.

 

[lonergirl_26]

It depends on the day. I constantly go back and forth about this. Sometimes I want to be idolised in death. Like those Ukrainian teenagers or just someone who people make their idols. Of course I wouldn't want people to glorify suicide but the idea of being liked is very attractive to me. Then other times I want to be forgotten by everyone. I want people to forget of my existence once I'm gone. In conclusion I don't know who I am or what I want. The only thing I know for definite is death.

 

[Lost Magic]

Honestly I have had visions of my self jumping from the roof of the church in the town centre But in reality I just want to be left alone to die.

 

[Kibby]

I would just want someone to care when it happens. Maybe it's a bit too selfish wanting people to feel that, since you're wishing they feel pain but it's still a desire.

 

[LostLily]

I don't even want my body to be found. Let alone my death be famous. I wish I can disappear.

 

[Namelesa]

I do like the idea of my suicide being known cus I crave attention whether that;s positive or negative. I would like people to empathize with my suffering but I also think I deserve hate.

 

[NoNeedToLive]

i know it wont matter because i'll be dead but i daydream a lot about people taking pictures of my corpse or recording me actually doing it and then posting it online and talking about me and idolizing me. like i said it doesnt even matter because i wont see the aftermath since i'll be dead but idk , i just like thinking about what people would say about my death and i fantasize about people archiving all my internet posts and being able to relate to my struggles. i dont know why i do this it doesnt make sense the more i think about it

i know it wont matter because i'll be dead but i daydream a lot about people taking pictures of my corpse or recording me actually doing it and then posting it online and talking about me and idolizing me. like i said it doesnt even matter because i wont see the aftermath since i'll be dead but idk , i just like thinking about what people would say about my death and i fantasize about people archiving all my internet posts and being able to relate to my struggles. i dont know why i do this it doesnt make sense the more i think about it

I think you dream too much, if you can, you really think about the thought of what will happen after death. If you still think about what will happen after your death, you probably want attention from people. I think someone who is really going to commit suicide doesn't think about how to affect this world after their death. 70 years later, almost all people living now will go to eternity. What does it really matter?

 

[WhiteRabbit]

No, I don't give a shit about any of that—narcissistic crap.

 

[Arin]

I wouldn't want myself on some gore site, but maybe just a memorial assembly at school or something so people actually acknowledge my (now lack of) existence

Yeah, absolutely, this really resonated with me. Something quiet and respectful to recognise the fact that we once existed. If we've been failed in life, it would at least be somewhat decent for the people around us to acknowledge their failure.

 

[leaftomb]

i can never tell if i'd rather that or for no one to find my body. i won't be here anyway and i feel becoming famous for my death would just harm my loved ones so, probably not

 

[Arin]

Honestly I have had visions of my self jumping from the roof of the church in the town centre But in reality I just want to be left alone to die.

lmao same - every time I had to go to the local church I'd imagine hanging myself from the rafters above during service lol

 

[always_sad]

No... I want it to be quiet and anonymous. But I still wonder how people I know would react.

 

[heavysoul]

I definitely dream about how people would react to my suicide, and wish for outpours of love and support and grief. But when I think about it logically, I wouldn't even be able to see any of it so I'd much rather have that love and support now, but people (and including me, I'm not exempt from this) really don't appreciate or are kind enough to others while they're living.

 

[theboy]

It depends... there are cases of CTB that generate controversy because they appear in the media. Others are anonymous.

Perhaps, the right question is: How do I want to be remembered?

 

[YoungJijii]

No, it'll just sully your legacy. For example, Kurt cobain. All the great things he's done is overshadowed by his suicide in the eyes of many. Besides, you won't see your "fame" come into fruition, so what's the point.

 

[heroine]

I can relate. really I just don't want to be forgotten

 

[SilentSadness]

Sadly most people will just see it as tragic or selfish so what's the point. It would be nice if my suicide could made people happy, after all it's only positive for me.

 

[bananaolympus]

I don't even want to be in the local newspaper

 

[billie]

i'm going to kill myself soon but no one cares anyway