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Mage
- Oct 28, 2018
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Hi. I am classified by psychiatrist as having scizoaffective disorder. I am not sure whether it's accurate but here is my problem:
I try avoiding people because I feel tense, anxious and fearful when talking with people.
The worst part is that I am unable to work because I do not understand what people say to me when talking with them. This is especially true when they explain something to me. Their words don't stay in my head and if there's something I understood from conversation I forget it right away.
When I try to ask them again, I don't always get it. I don't want to ask them over and over because I am afraid of their response and what they will think of me. At this point I start to fear them, to talk to them and I say "Understood" to save my face even if there's something I didn't understand. I think I am retard but I don't want them to see me as retard.
I had to quit my job recently because I wasn't doing well there. For me it was better to quit than them seeing me a retard and firing me. I quit because I didn't understand my job and was like a dummy. I couldn't stand those awkward situations anymore. I was avoiding employees right there. I was afraid.
Anyone thinks this looks like scizoaffective disorder or something else?
Those who have what I described, how do you cope with these issues?
Thanks.
I try avoiding people because I feel tense, anxious and fearful when talking with people.
The worst part is that I am unable to work because I do not understand what people say to me when talking with them. This is especially true when they explain something to me. Their words don't stay in my head and if there's something I understood from conversation I forget it right away.
When I try to ask them again, I don't always get it. I don't want to ask them over and over because I am afraid of their response and what they will think of me. At this point I start to fear them, to talk to them and I say "Understood" to save my face even if there's something I didn't understand. I think I am retard but I don't want them to see me as retard.
I had to quit my job recently because I wasn't doing well there. For me it was better to quit than them seeing me a retard and firing me. I quit because I didn't understand my job and was like a dummy. I couldn't stand those awkward situations anymore. I was avoiding employees right there. I was afraid.
Anyone thinks this looks like scizoaffective disorder or something else?
Those who have what I described, how do you cope with these issues?
Thanks.