Venting does it get better?

[lemonade2]

i feel like it an endless looping , where no matter what i do , i would still feel this way.I am tired of feeling this way , especially pretending that i am just fine , but i am actually not. Nobody would have guess how many times i wish i didn't exist in this life , i wish maybe one of them would have noticed. But nobody did. Sometime i feel like i should not feel this way , other had it worse , i probably overreacting , exaggaretting and all that. I wish this feeling will go away , someday

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

 

[no!tres.]

probably not

 

[Life_and_Death]

depends on exactly what your issue is. some/most people, yeah its possible. (technically probably everyone but thats hard to say without going into every reason someone is suicidal, so in some cases maybe no)

coming from someone with BPD, yes its possible. but FOR ME it still has its complications. after hard self work im significantly better than i use to be (which use to be viewed as impossible for someone with bpd, a lost cause).however im still heavily suicidal because the human race sucks, i have no family, and bpd comes with chronic suicidality.

its really case dependent, only you really know if you can recover. the biggest question is "are you willing to put the work in" whatever your answer to that question is, is the answer to your question

 

[gogoprince]

Getting better takes time. We're all caught in certain cycles of suffering and if people haven't noticed your depression it may not be that they are so unfeeling, but that they are too caught up in their own feelings.

If everything feels like a painful cycle that you can't escape I would keep trying to do the smallest thing you can possibly due to break the cycle. That could be telling yourself "I love you" once a day when you wake up; resolving to do a kind gesture without the expectation that it will be repaid; pray for the well-being of others and the world; list out things you're grateful for, etc. Things won't change quickly, but you will planting seeds that hopefully you can reap in the future and you can rest assured that you are doing something about your situation. As painful as this is, you have some small power to help change your outlook and it will pay off with time. When we are wrapped up in suicidal ideation, our minds are constantly geared towards the immediate gratification of the end of suffering - we are constantly and desperately searching for escape. In recovery, we start the process of more patiently living out our faith that things can improve and life is worth living.

 

[finallydone]

i'm in an endless loop as well, things seem to start getting better until it either stops, resets back to where it was initially or even get worse, i was cursed with life

 

[Life_and_Death]

its normal to feel like youre going no where

 

[JaJu]

i'm in an endless loop as well, things seem to start getting better until it either stops, resets back to where it was initially or even get worse, i was cursed with life

I feel that

 

[lemonade2]

Getting better takes time. We're all caught in certain cycles of suffering and if people haven't noticed your depression it may not be that they are so unfeeling, but that they are too caught up in their own feelings.

If everything feels like a painful cycle that you can't escape I would keep trying to do the smallest thing you can possibly due to break the cycle. That could be telling yourself "I love you" once a day when you wake up; resolving to do a kind gesture without the expectation that it will be repaid; pray for the well-being of others and the world; list out things you're grateful for, etc. Things won't change quickly, but you will planting seeds that hopefully you can reap in the future and you can rest assured that you are doing something about your situation. As painful as this is, you have some small power to help change your outlook and it will pay off with time. When we are wrapped up in suicidal ideation, our minds are constantly geared towards the immediate gratification of the end of suffering - we are constantly and desperately searching for escape. In recovery, we start the process of more patiently living out our faith that things can improve and life is worth living.

Thank you so much for the suggestions , i'll try and hopes for the better.. I'll keep trying , again and again

depends on exactly what your issue is. some/most people, yeah its possible. (technically probably everyone but thats hard to say without going into every reason someone is suicidal, so in some cases maybe no)

coming from someone with BPD, yes its possible. but FOR ME it still has its complications. after hard self work im significantly better than i use to be (which use to be viewed as impossible for someone with bpd, a lost cause).however im still heavily suicidal because the human race sucks, i have no family, and bpd comes with chronic suicidality.

its really case dependent, only you really know if you can recover. the biggest question is "are you willing to put the work in" whatever your answer to that question is, is the answer to your question

Thank you so much , your words give me hopes , i'll try again no matter what. I want to be happy , to be at peace again.

i'm in an endless loop as well, things seem to start getting better until it either stops, resets back to where it was initially or even get worse, i was cursed with life

i deeply understood how exactly it feels , smiling and laughing all day just to be at the lowest moment again , it like something wrong with me . But hey i don't wanna be this way , shall we keep trying again? together (sending hugs)