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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
5,426
I received some comments that my threads are good distractions from personal problems. And I am proud of that.
In the past I sometimes had a guilty conscience for being a longterm member (due to the media reports) and posted a lot of recovery resources.
Currently, I am the member with the 20th most posts. And I think on the "ranking" with most threads I am even higher.

I kind of like that my contributions to this community will be part of my legacy. I want to document all the injustice I had to endure. And I wanted to prove that I actually fight for my life. And maybe to help others to win that fight. But I am becoming increasingly tired. Really tired.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,069
I get a lot of comfort and distraction by interacting with people here. I don't see it as an achievement as such. It's more that I'm grateful to be able to have some contact with others, that I'm able to discuss stuff and vent. It's nice if I occasionally provide support to others as, they have supported me.

A part of me likes that this will remain here as a part of the evidence that I existed but, I suspect it will be lost in no time at all. I very much doubt people from my real life will go looking for me here. That's good though too in a way. Just the nature of things- that we're just fleetingly here and then gone.
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Warlock
Feb 10, 2024
769
Yes but it all goes horribly wrong in some cases.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
422
I feel like I take too much and give too little. My problems aren't nearly as horrible as a lot of people on here. So I just have no idea how to be super supportive other than reacting with hugs most of the time. When I do try to be extra supportive to a few people here I feel like I am still contributing nothing. I think I tend to answer more general threads, so what does that really contribute?

I actually had this problem occur just yesterday irl. I have one friend she lives in another state. I called her really wanting to whine about my problems and instead she was an emotional mess because of her current problems. I felt horrible. Tried to ask all the right questions. Make sure she was safe, but I am just at a loss For what to say.
At least I was smart enough to not interrupt her to bring up my own shit.
 
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ocdsucks

Member
Dec 5, 2024
32
I feel like I take too much and give too little. My problems aren't nearly as horrible as a lot of people on here. So I just have no idea how to be super supportive other than reacting with hugs most of the time. When I do try to be extra supportive to a few people here I feel like I am still contributing nothing. I think I tend to answer more general threads, so what does that really contribute?

I actually had this problem occur just yesterday irl. I have one friend she lives in another state. I called her really wanting to whine about my problems and instead she was an emotional mess because of her current problems. I felt horrible. Tried to ask all the right questions. Make sure she was safe, but I am just at a loss For what to say.
At least I was smart enough to not interrupt her to bring up my own shit.
personally even just a reaction makes me feel less alone
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,206
It really doesn't matter but I know I'm only making this forum look worse by being here. I have the third most posts but I'm still such an utterly awful excuse for a human being that I haven't even done the world a favor by killing myself even though I've had SN for over four years now. I also know that my problems are so pathetic and minor compared to most other members and yet they affect me all the same. I really am the weakest most annoying user who hasn't been banned yet. I don't believe I contribute anything to this forum except maybe catharsis for good people knowing that Justice still exists because I am still suffering so deeply.
 
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ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

-acute terminal depression-
Mar 14, 2024
1,293
Currently, I am the member with the 20th most posts. And I think on the "ranking" with most threads I am even higher.
and in your second language...
I really am the weakest most annoying user who hasn't been banned yet.
Definitely not the weakest or most annoying...
DefinitelyReady knows...
 
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daley

daley

Experienced
May 11, 2024
205
I received some comments that my threads are good distractions from personal problems. And I am proud of that.
In the past I sometimes had a guilty conscience for being a longterm member (due to the media reports) and posted a lot of recovery resources.
Currently, I am the member with the 20th most posts. And I think on the "ranking" with most threads I am even higher.

I kind of like that my contributions to this community will be part of my legacy. I want to document all the injustice I had to endure. And I wanted to prove that I actually fight for my life. And maybe to help others to win that fight. But I am becoming increasingly tired. Really tired.

I like reading your posts. If you are tired, just take a rest. Give yourself a break.

You asked in the title whether it matter what we contribute to this community.
Well, nothing really matters, which is freeing. I like to feel I am contributing to this community, and I act
like it matters to me. I don't really have anything else to do. I have a lot of ideas about pro-choice things to write,
but don't seem to have an appropriate outlet, even in this community. Often I think what is the point.
But I am still alive, waiting for my demise. There is nothing else to do.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,323
It doesn't matter to me whether I contribute to this community or not. I'm not obligated to contribute to this place nor do I have to. At the end of the day, I'm only here because this is the only place where I can talk about what's on my mind, that's it. If I had access to a suicide method that I know is reliable enough for it to succeed, I would have no need for this site.
 
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yellowjester

yellowjester

Specialist
Jun 2, 2024
333
I am contributing to this forum with my presence alone. :halo:
 
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Arachno

Arachno

oh no :(
Apr 10, 2023
250
It does, I wish I could contribute something of value to this community, but I can't, I don't know how, I don't know how to write valuable posts. I wanna be a valuable user too.
 
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