GoSan1
Misfit
- Nov 7, 2024
- 124
I have been turning to my old self again these past days, fully toxic in my games and hurting people with words. I hate myself, I hate that I can't control it, but it's like something that just takes over, and I can't stop playing games, because they make my thoughts stop. This singular week has messed me up so badly, I don't even wanna be like this, I don't want to hurt people, especially knowing how it feels like. My head is just fucked right now, my mother isn't behaving the same since my mistake, which is understandable... My faith is in the gutter, my hopes turned to despair
I got signs, I had everything ready if I just had had ctb'd on the 24th of November, but I didn't, and now m on my way further down this endless void of suffering, losing myself more and more. I can't think straight anymore, just wanna rot in my room, this is not living, this is simply staying alive... You should listen to yourself, as only you know what is best for yourself. This is so mean and cruel for all of us, this suffering. If it would just end...
I got signs, I had everything ready if I just had had ctb'd on the 24th of November, but I didn't, and now m on my way further down this endless void of suffering, losing myself more and more. I can't think straight anymore, just wanna rot in my room, this is not living, this is simply staying alive... You should listen to yourself, as only you know what is best for yourself. This is so mean and cruel for all of us, this suffering. If it would just end...