Drowning is such a horrible way to CTB.

[FriedBrakeDisc]

Couple years ago, I tried to jump in the ocean with no way of getting back up (90 degrees cliff). I don't know how to swim or even stay afloat.

I tossed in a small buoy, JUST IN CASE. I jumped in during midnight, breathed in a bunch of dirty sea water, my lungs and throat felt like they were burning then proceed struggle to surface the water and stay afloat. The panic and fear was really bad as I start to flail around. I imagine I would already be dead if I didn't toss in that buoy.

I didn't want to die this painfully so I grabbed onto the buoy for dear life for half an hour, cold and wet, not sure what to do next. Then I started climbing the cliff, the sharp rocks digging into my hands and feet, exhausting every ounce of my remaining strength to climb back up. I had trouble walking for the next couple weeks because of that.

Why is killing ourselves peacefully so hard...? Shouldn't we have the choice to end our own life? I don't want to exist anymore... Now SN is getting attention across the globe, it's hard to obtain one without having the police visit you personally.

 

[Doll Steak]

I'm very sorry you went through that painful shit, I hope you recovered fine.

You're right, humanity should have the right to end there own lives peacefully, It honestly may even make the world a better place, less trauma, mass shootings, etc. But its easier said than done, MUCH MUCH easier said than done.

Think:
Who would do it?
How would they do it?
Does it cost something?
Will it be yet another thing that is capitalized by the rich?
Will it be used maliciously somehow?
Who is eligible for it?
blah blah blah

so many questions.

 

[Eudaimonic]

it's only horrible if one is not unconsciousness beforehand

 

[takuyablackbox]

it's hell, but only temporarily. survivors of drowning incidents who were resuscitated will say that once the body's breathing reflex takes over and the lungs completely fill with water, the burning stops, and there's a sense of tranquility and almost euphoria.

 

[Intoxicated]

it's only horrible if one is not unconsciousness beforehand

I suspect that the definition of "horrible" also varies a lot from individual to individual. Those people who are well-familiar with immense physical pain would likely find that discomfort from drowning is not worth complaining about; while those who have lived the whole life in sterile conditions commonly have near-zero tolerance to unpleasant perceptions.

It's a remarkable fun fact that many complainers allegedly seeking for "peaceful" death actually don't show any interest in the means/methods of pain/discomfort alleviation when you suggest possible options for consideration. It's like if you told someone that shooting brainstem leads to instant death, they would just keep focusing on how much pain can be perceived from shooting abdomen, ignoring rational approaches to using firearms.

 

[FuneralCry]

That really does sound so horrific, I see so much cruelty in how peaceful ways to cease existing are denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful anti-suicide world where humans are trapped in this torturous, futile existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I just want to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[Forveleth]

I have heard this from someone I know who almost drowned and from studies interviewing near drowning victims:

The first 60 seconds is the most abject terror and panic you will ever feel in your life. You will fight with everything you have to get air. However, after about 60 seoncss your brain lets go. You accept you are going to die and it is actually quite peaceful. The water makes everything quiet and the sun looks beautiful under the surface.

It is quite the experience so far as I can tell but I feel there are far worse ways to go.