Help Drug abuse vs ctb

[Mainlaender]

hi im new here and basically have 2 questions:

1. do you think it would be better for my family to know me living but under permanent drug abuse/jail/substitution (cause i see no other way for me in the long term..)
OR
you know, ctb? i know you dont know my parents but i want some more input

2. iwhen i ctb ill probably do h overdose but somewhere it says youll feel nothing somewhere that its hell... anyone experienced in that here? im not sure if i should let it look like an accidental od or just jump from some building (if someone by chance knows an accessible in germany id be glad to know that too, just in case)

thanks in advance

 

[MAIO]

hi im new here and basically have 2 questions:

1. do you think it would be better for my family to know me living but under permanent drug abuse/jail/substitution (cause i see no other way for me in the long term..)
OR
you know, ctb? i know you dont know my parents but i want some more input

2. iwhen i ctb ill probably do h overdose but somewhere it says youll feel nothing somewhere that its hell... anyone experienced in that here? im not sure if i should let it look like an accidental od or just jump from some building (if someone by chance knows an accessible in germany id be glad to know that too, just in case)

thanks in advance

If those were the only two options I personally would ctb in a heartbeat. Their are more options though.

 

[EternalSanction]

If drug addiction is the ""only"" (in quotes because obviously it's not that easy to overcome) problem you're facing, I'd recommend considering one of the many programs offering help with addictions. You could start by checking facilities/programs near you on here http://www.dhs.de/dhs.html . Of course that decision is completely up to you.

Regarding your initial question above, many people report that an overdose (e.g. Fentanyl) is relatively peaceful.

 

[Chinaski]

To be honest I've seen a few variations on this uncomfortable theme, the "should l live a life l don't like or just ctb?" type question, and my answer to all of them would never be to simply ctb, only you can decide that and whilst I'm very much pro-choice I'd also be very suspect of anyone who said "just commit suicide mate". It's your decision alone, sadly.

 

[Mainlaender]

If those were the only two options I personally would ctb in a heartbeat. Their are more options though.

If drug addiction is the ""only"" (in quotes because obviously it's not that easy to overcome) problem you're facing, I'd recommend considering one of the many programs offering help with addictions. You could start by checking facilities/programs near you on here http://www.dhs.de/dhs.html . Of course that decision is completely up to you.

Regarding your initial question above, many people report that an overdose (e.g. Fentanyl) is relatively peaceful.

i know i could still try to get out of the drug habit but i already lived sober from 18-19 (am 19 rn just starting to take whatever i can effort again)
but i am extremely lazy, might as well say lethargic/depressed and have no interests in anything, maybe i would be able to live a sober life (with ADs probably) but i tried to work a few years in different places, fulltime is impossible and i dont even think i could manage part time or less
heck i dont even know if "nothing matters why do anything" is my philosophy or barely an excuse,i wish i would know

whatever i do i dont feel happy, tried so many things, i know im bar far not the only one but for example if i would be rich, i would be happy a few weeks and then want more, so might as well drugs or ctb i dont even know what im typing just feels good to say i want to ctb even tho i might not do it, cause i dont have to tell you guys you wont say that to a psychiatrist :)

im glad i found a forum and whether your answeres brought me conclusion or not it feels good somehow