To be honest I'm pretty blitzed off the worst cocaine I've have in my life right now, and it's been a problem since the pandemic started. I'm not gonna say don't do it because you'll ruin your life, but I will say with borders closing and mandatory quarantine orders you might not get quality stuff that will help as much as you want, especially if you don't have the right contacts and people don't know you, but I wish you luck. Mushrooms when taken in the right mindset can be a great reset, if taken in the wrong mindset can worsen your suicidal tendencies (seriously, I wrote a book as a suicide note one time when I microdosed in a bad mindset, the only reason I didn't follow through is I was at a friends house). Cocaine can give you a good boost of energy if you want to get something done, but can drive you crazy if you have no one to talk to as an outlet. Weed makes me nauseated, but that's obviously not a common problem. Good luck on your search, but as a recreational drug user I would say it might be better to just drink alcohol. Cigarettes can also give you a nicotine buzz when you first start smoking and do well with calming anxiety.
After months of being clean I've turned back to self harm and smoking cigarettes because of this. I hope I don't get flack for this, but of all my drug use (including "legal" drugs like caffeine and nicotine) I feel the least guilty about self harm because outside wounds, while permanent visuals, do heal and affect my health less than anything I could ingest. I still do everything else so I'm not trying to use this as a cautionary tale because literally nothing here could be taken as actually healthy advice, just personal input.