Wolf Girl
"This place made me feel worthless"
- Jun 12, 2024
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I've started hurting myself again. I've started going hungry again.
I cut with a craft knife I keep in my bedside drawer. It's not as risky as the shaving razor blades that will cut you to the muscle in one slash. I don't want to end up back in the ER. But I want to bleed. I want my skin to hurt.
I'm counting calories and skipping meals. I want to be skinny again. Even if it means having sunken eyes and blue fingernails. Heroin chic. I hate myself as I am. I hate having fat on my body. People tell me I'm not fat, just an average size person, but I'm the kind of person who doesn't look good enough at a normal size. My body shape is too weird, I need to be SKINNY to stop being gross.
I hate myself so fucking much.
I cut with a craft knife I keep in my bedside drawer. It's not as risky as the shaving razor blades that will cut you to the muscle in one slash. I don't want to end up back in the ER. But I want to bleed. I want my skin to hurt.
I'm counting calories and skipping meals. I want to be skinny again. Even if it means having sunken eyes and blue fingernails. Heroin chic. I hate myself as I am. I hate having fat on my body. People tell me I'm not fat, just an average size person, but I'm the kind of person who doesn't look good enough at a normal size. My body shape is too weird, I need to be SKINNY to stop being gross.
I hate myself so fucking much.
