end of life care

[onlyforever1]

Today was basically the clue by four that will probably actually get me to see that things are only going to get worse from here on out and I need to ctb.

It frustrates me that we can't have open and honest discussion with the people we love about the end of our life. My body and brain are deteriorating just like someone with terminal cancer, I should be able to access the same kind of support. It's clear to everyone involved that my brain is slowly dying, that I'm deteriorating right before their eyes. But they all pretend like I can somehow dig my way out of it, like it's my fault that I'm not trying hard enough.

 

[Waterfall500]

I dont really now what to say but I want you to know im thinking about you

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

If you are talking about suffering from major depressive disorder I can totally relate. I have severely deteriorated this past year and no one can understand it and thinks I will get better, but I won't and want to die. Whenever I mention my death to friends or family they freak out.

 

[Waterfall500]

I dont really now what to say but I want you to know im thinking about you

Also Its only a small thing to add but i completely relate to what you said about people expecting you to get out of your own depression or sad thoughts. I wish I had an answer to even try explain the situation im in to them but I have no idea how

 

[onlyforever1]

If you are talking about suffering from major depressive disorder I can totally relate. I have severely deteriorated this past year and no one can understand it and thinks I will get better, but I won't and want to die. Whenever I mention my death to friends or family they freak out.

I have generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, OCD and ADHD. it is a fucking miracle I have made it to the age of 33 and I wish people would be congratulating me on that instead of trying to throw darts at the wall to see if they'll fix me.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I dont really now what to say but I want you to know im thinking about you

I have generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, OCD and ADHD. it is a fucking miracle I have made it to the age of 33 and I wish people would be congratulating me on that instead of trying to throw darts at the wall to see if they'll fix me.

I'm so sorry. Normal brains can't comprehend mental illness and the internal torment we suffer from. I'm 55 years old and can't believe I made it this far but I am ready to go.

 

[onlyforever1]

I'm so sorry. Normal brains can't comprehend mental illness and the internal torment we suffer from. I'm 55 years old and can't believe I made it this far but I am ready to go.

Even my therapist has basically given up, all of our sessions basically consist of her saying she can't help me if I don't want to do the work or trying to recommend me to get ketamine therapy. It's so frustrating, I don't want to die but I want to talk about it, I want that to be an option I can rationally discuss.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Even my therapist has basically given up, all of our sessions basically consist of her saying she can't help me if I don't want to do the work or trying to recommend me to get ketamine therapy. It's so frustrating, I don't want to die but I want to talk about it, I want that to be an option I can rationally discuss.

People with normal brain chemistry want to stay alive at all costs, so they can't understand why you would want to die. Talking about death is very uncomfortable to most. That's why I like coming on this website.

I feel if your brain wiring is that messed up, no amount of therapy will help. Also, I've done oral ketamine and it didn't help. I also have done ECT and that didn't help either.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so frustrated by that, personally I find it so cruel how there's no acceptance towards the wish to permanently prevent all future suffering, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die.

 

[sevennn]

Also Its only a small thing to add but i completely relate to what you said about people expecting you to get out of your own depression or sad thoughts. I wish I had an answer to even try explain the situation im in to them but I have no idea how

yeah. and nobody cares to support a person through their depression. my family didn't care, only tell me to go to a therapist

 

[NegevChina]

People with normal brain chemistry want to stay alive at all costs, so they can't understand why you would want to die. Talking about death is very uncomfortable to most. That's why I like coming on this website.

I feel if your brain wiring is that messed up, no amount of therapy will help. Also, I've done oral ketamine and it didn't help. I also have done ECT and that didn't help either.

I've told normal people about my CPTSD and my thoughts and it was a big mistake. My mental condition has been deteriorating dramatically lately due to rare physical health problems and those cant be understood by anybody either. So as long as your issues are relatively common/normal, people will try to understand and help but once you cross a certain line people will treat you with general automatic solutions and answers that may be irrelevant to your condition.

 

[divinemistress36]

Even my therapist has basically given up, all of our sessions basically consist of her saying she can't help me if I don't want to do the work or trying to recommend me to get ketamine therapy. It's so frustrating, I don't want to die but I want to talk about it, I want that to be an option I can rationally discuss.

Ketamine made me want to die even more . During the sessions I felt like I was dead and in another dimension and had no ego. Then after was all dissassociated and more depressed