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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
So I've had the best two months of my life so far, I've not been depressed even a single minute.
I'm using Dianabol and Testosterone, a little more testosterone than suggested by the doctor(endocrinologist) half of what's suggested by the gym advisor , so I'm in between dosis qty. And it seems like a good range.

I post because I've only got 1 or two more weeks to go, the doctor said we could push it longer if my blood results say I'm fine.

The thing is, I don't want to go back, I don't want to feel depressed and hopeless and empty and without the will to do what I've got to do to accomplish my objectives.

In other words it sucks knowing I must quit testo and dianabol, specially dianabol which it supposedly positively enhances the mood.

What will happen?
I will see the doctor this next Friday and I'm already worried about going back to depression for couple months until I can do testo and dianabol again.

Love you guys , wish you the best , hope I could help someone here , even if it's only 1, but I can't spare money man, I've got my own necessities, and I will need because I'm starting my own side business but I will need more than couple hundred a month to run it.
 
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Orin

Orin

Experienced
Apr 16, 2019
253
Really happy for you for 2 great months. And I can understand your apprehension.

Could there be any way to convince your doctor to not stop your intake on account of your fear of lapsing into depressive periods again?

Alternatively there are natural ways to boost testosterone production (i.e. certain foods, less stress, etc.) Though i apologize in advance if you have already tried these.
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Really happy for you for 2 great months. And I can understand your apprehension.

Could there be any way to convince your doctor to not stop your intake on account of your fear of lapsing into depressive periods again?

Alternatively there are natural ways to boost testosterone production (i.e. certain foods, less stress, etc.) Though i apologize in advance if you have already tried these.

I'll try many, but the doctor knows better, he is a sex change specialists too, I'm not going to do a sex change! But he knows how to treat hormones in men who become women and viceversa , i really think he can make something happen, he even said / mentioned we will try different Testosterones because they act on different receptors and that that way I could keep on doing this, but the thing is Dianabol which is really toxic to the liver , but I'm sure he'll have something to say and do
 
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WinterIsComing

WinterIsComing

Fragile...
May 27, 2019
256
Thanks for giving a possitive look here, another solution.....some kind of new hope
What's you business about?
 
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