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make_00

make_00

404
Jul 3, 2020
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it might be because I am around people that just understand it, and the pro-choice air to it that I don't feel as stifled. I think of suicide as an immediate option less
 
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LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
356
Once I did the research, and discovered that there was a way to go relatively peacefully, and quickly, I felt as if a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. As if knowing I have that option, made it ok to keep going as that option would always be there. It's a strange thing
 
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make_00

make_00

404
Jul 3, 2020
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Once I did the research, and discovered that there was a way to go relatively peacefully, and quickly, I felt as if a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. As if knowing I have that option, made it ok to keep going as that option would always be there. It's a strange thing
yeah, pretty much the same for me. the dread and panic gone once I have a settled method.
 
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BetterInthanOut

Student
Mar 6, 2020
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Once I did the research, and discovered that there was a way to go relatively peacefully, and quickly, I felt as if a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. As if knowing I have that option, made it ok to keep going as that option would always be there. It's a strange thing

That's exactly the feeling I had. I joined, bought sn, and its been sitting in my cupboard for the last 5 months. Somehow just having a method has made me relax and find life more bearable- strange!
 
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socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
301
Sometimes when I'm feeling really anxious or depressed I'll log unto this site and feel better after using the forum. I think your right, It's the like minded people you find and the option of way out that can make people feel better.
 
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so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
someone was telling me a common reason for eating disorders is to gain control when one has none. maybe it's a similar thought where once you have the ability you also have gained control again.
 
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not4us

not4us

Experienced
Sep 21, 2019
246
Yeah! you think all people are shit, then you log in to SS, read it for a while and start doubting your conclusion
Also I agree about having the way out makes one feel less trapped in this world.
 
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esse_est_percipi

Enlightened
Jul 14, 2020
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Once I did the research, and discovered that there was a way to go relatively peacefully, and quickly, I felt as if a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. As if knowing I have that option, made it ok to keep going as that option would always be there. It's a strange thing
What way did you discover to go relatively peacefully and quickly? I still can't figure out what to do. I would buy sn but too difficult to get in my country.
 
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LookingOverTheEdge

LookingOverTheEdge

Hello Darkness my old friend
Jul 13, 2020
356
What way did you discover to go relatively peacefully and quickly? I still can't figure out what to do. I would buy sn but too difficult to get in my country.
Unfortunately I was referring to SN. It's not easy in my country either but where there's a will, there's a way!
 
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esse_est_percipi

Enlightened
Jul 14, 2020
1,747
Unfortunately I was referring to SN. It's not easy in my country either but where there's a will, there's a way!
Yes, I thought so. I think I'll have to risk trying to get some at some point.
But I'm in the uk so it's tough.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
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Sometimes having an outlet for these thoughts can make all the difference in the world. Nothing is worse than trying to contain suicidal feelings without being able to speak honestly about them. Being able to talk about them and bounce ideas off others can help you understand your own feelings better and control them better.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

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Mar 31, 2020
1,188
Same here. I feel understood
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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I agree with pretty much what has been said. This place kind of saved me and allowed me to express myself when no one else would listen.
However...
It can be addictive and it's possible to wallow in self pity and refuse to engage with the world or any meaningful attempt at recovery. I'm not saying people are doing that, simply that I have felt that temptation.
It's also possible to become too dependent on relationships here then be devastated when people leave.
But the acceptance and genuine understanding here is not something I've found anywhere else.
I don't know whether it's tragic, ironic or wonderful that people can find such empathy in their darkest times.
 
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