MBiopic
Dreamer
- Apr 10, 2023
- 55
Hi, everyone!
So, some news: I think I recently decided on my primary and secondary methods of CTB! I'll explain what I mean by that in a moment.
But the main point of the post is - I bought a good 12mm thick polyester rope for my full suspension hanging, according to a curious guide by Evelyn Lane which you can read here.
I've been experimenting with it and different suspension points. For now, I can't really find a good suspension spot inside my home. I have a pull-up bar and it can hold my whole weight perfectly, but it's installed in a doorway, which makes it too close to the floor for full suspension.
But, purely for testing reasons, I figured out a way to push on my carotid arteries laying down, with the rope tied to a chair. I made a comfortable bed and tightened the noose around my neck, then just relaxed my body, making the rope push on my neck and give me the same feeling I had during trying out the Night-Night method. Except that the feeling of losing consciousness comes A LOT quicker.
So basically, hanging is my primary method - for now I feel the most comfortable with it, bearing in mind that I have no way to access a firearm or SN. My secondary method is just jumping off a tall building, but that's in case I can't find any way to hang myself properly. I'll start trying to hang out on high spots and even roofs more often, to get used to the feeling.
Either way, I'm excited about my progress! And I feel this tiny bit of... piece and calmness inside me, knowing that I'm making small steps toward my transition to the other realm (or whatever).
How are you guys doing? How is your day going? Could you tell me what your preferred method is and why? I am very interested to hear your points of view.
So, some news: I think I recently decided on my primary and secondary methods of CTB! I'll explain what I mean by that in a moment.
But the main point of the post is - I bought a good 12mm thick polyester rope for my full suspension hanging, according to a curious guide by Evelyn Lane which you can read here.
I've been experimenting with it and different suspension points. For now, I can't really find a good suspension spot inside my home. I have a pull-up bar and it can hold my whole weight perfectly, but it's installed in a doorway, which makes it too close to the floor for full suspension.
But, purely for testing reasons, I figured out a way to push on my carotid arteries laying down, with the rope tied to a chair. I made a comfortable bed and tightened the noose around my neck, then just relaxed my body, making the rope push on my neck and give me the same feeling I had during trying out the Night-Night method. Except that the feeling of losing consciousness comes A LOT quicker.
So basically, hanging is my primary method - for now I feel the most comfortable with it, bearing in mind that I have no way to access a firearm or SN. My secondary method is just jumping off a tall building, but that's in case I can't find any way to hang myself properly. I'll start trying to hang out on high spots and even roofs more often, to get used to the feeling.
Either way, I'm excited about my progress! And I feel this tiny bit of... piece and calmness inside me, knowing that I'm making small steps toward my transition to the other realm (or whatever).
How are you guys doing? How is your day going? Could you tell me what your preferred method is and why? I am very interested to hear your points of view.